Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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barb808 09/08/2015

hi my name is Barb,

I've been dealing with a lot of depression lately! I recently remarried my first husband passed away five years ago! We moved to Florida and I hate it! All I do is cry laying bed and I just want to go home! I miss my grandkids so much! But my husband refuses to go back which I don't understand he left his children behind and just doesn't care! I'm ready just to take off! I just don't know what to do I tell how much I hated here he doesn't care! The thing is if I knew he was unhappy somewhere I would move wherever he wanted too!But he's a mama's boy you need to live near his mom! He left his children behind because he wanted to be with his mom he had his children late in life so they're only 13 and 16 where mine are 21 and 23! My daughter who's 21 has two children and I miss them so bad!!!He left his children behind with the need to be near his mother! The funny thing is he doesn't even care those kids don't talk to now because they're mad that he move so far away!I know I okayed the move the Florida and I'm trying to make peace with that I just don't think I can make it here the depression is killing me!
Posted on 09/08/15, 06:43 am

mlucasone 09/08/2015

You could show your kids you love them by calling them often and keeping up with their lives.

barb808 09/08/2015

I do ,I just not happy here

kimjones 09/08/2015

Hang in there, you need to do what's best for you. I live in Fl as well.

barb808 09/08/2015

I'm going to be starting therapy soon, i don't want to do anything I will regret.thats why I joined to hopefully get support

ThePepperMan 09/08/2015

It sounds like you have some very hard decisions to make. By all means call your children often, and plan to visit them when you can. It is a lot easier for an adult woman to go visit her daughter and 2 young children than for them to come visit you.

Gentle hugs

ps, it sounds like your husband has chosen his mother over you and over his own minor children.

barb808 09/08/2015

Pepper mam that's exactly what he did! I'm in a situation where I let myself get into. Sometimes I think I end up getting married because I m afraid to be alone! I don't know I'm just very confused and so don't know what to do thank you everybody for your replies

survivor69 09/08/2015

SO SORRY 2 READ U R GOING THRU THIS.
PRAYING 4 U AND HUBBY AND FAMILY.
GBU
D
;-O

bridgie101 09/08/2015

My last boyfriend convinced me to leave my son 1000 miles away and was basically 100% entirely self absorbed. Got what he wanted, did this guy. Had a teenaged daughter who was treated like an inconvenience.

I am from my past having a bad reaction to what you are saying. perhaps you need to just go home and call this thing quits. Do you love this man?

Does he take account of anything else that you want? or is this thing all about him? Because it sounds like he already has one mother, and probably can survive without two.

gramybear 09/08/2015

I'm glad to hear that you are starting therapy. That should be a lot of help and so will this group. There are wonderful supportive people on this site! Hugs GB

barb808 09/09/2015

I wanted to say thanks to everyone who has replied,I'm glad I found this group I have no family or friends where I live so I get lost in lonliness a lot !

moonbeam2015 09/09/2015

I agree call, skype, snap chat whatever you can do to keep your relationship with them going, and if you have layed your cards on the table for your hubby then you both have an important decision to make, what is most important to u both. I left my kids before believing they were better off and not a day goes by that I don't wish that I hadn't decided to do that. But that is me, I can only speak from my experience. Hope it helps.

whatswrong19 09/11/2015

Hello barb. Welcome to the group. I hope you find alot of support and comfort and the help you need to move foward with your life and make the decisions that will ease your pain. I am single, have been for a very long time because of exactly what you are describing, It is so hard to find anyone who is not completely self absorbed, and if the income is thiers, then they have all the say so, and they get to be self absorbed. I have my own income, but it is just about as much hell as having to depend on a man. I would almost go back to depending on a man again, if I could find one half way decent. Life sucks no matter what you do. Life is just going to suck in one way or another. Sorry I'm being a downer right now. I do hope the therapy is helpful to you. are you close to the coast? do you go out to the beach at all?

barb808 09/11/2015

I do go to the beach but not muchi m hoping to work this out in therapy.my head is so messed up.

luvinlex 09/12/2015

Good for you joining the group! That's a step forward! Having a therapist will really help. Maybe start an online diary ( Penzu Post ) where nobody else can read it. Go there to express your thoughts, hurts and pain. I did and now when I look back, I was so full of anger and it was like I was a crazy person. I can barely read it.
Leaving your kids is almost like a death but there is no support, no people around to comfort you and show sympathy. There is no closure but you still feel that sort of pain and loss. Telling someone who is depressed doesn't work too well. When I'm depressed and people suggest to "take a walk" it's like a joke. I can't get off the sofa much less go walking. When you feel stronger, maybe you can volunteer to work with needy children, feel like you are helping and loved. Make yourself feel important again. It is a good idea to email, Skype, video chat, and keep in touch all the time. Let them know how much you love them and how important they are to you.

barb808 09/12/2015

Volunterring is a a good idea,it feels like I just want to run,run home!but I'm so confused I don't want to hurt him but I don't want to be here either it ripping my hurt and soul out

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