Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Hi everyone. I just wanted to say sorry for how I responded to the replies to my topic earlier.
I don't know what is wrong with me, what is bothering me, how I feel.. anything. I am really confused about how I feel. So I answer questions one way and then another and I contradict myself and I say one thing and I mean another and I mean to say things I don't say, and don't mean to say a lot of the things I do.
I don't understand what is going on with me. By the time I've managed to describe half-decently what I am feeling and thinking, it has all changed again and I'm just as confused and lost as before.
A few of you have tried really hard in the last 24 hours to help me and I'm not making it easy. But it's because I can't. Everything I say is true when I say it but might not be true anymore by the time you read it. I don't know if that even makes any sense...
When I am feeling that overwhelming hopelessness that I've been feeling so much of lately, I feel like that is how I have felt perpetually for months and months.. but then an hour or two later, when my mind is distracted and I'm feeling alright I feel like a jackass for pretending I am doing worse then I am.. but when I'm letting it out it is true - I am in immense pain. i don't know if anything I am saying makes any sense.. I can't figure out how to put into words what is going on in my head right now.
I just want to say thanks to everyone who is trying to help me get through this and who has given me what advice they can. And I want to say sorry if it seems like I'm not taking your advice.
I don't know what is wrong with me, what is bothering me, how I feel.. anything. I am really confused about how I feel. So I answer questions one way and then another and I contradict myself and I say one thing and I mean another and I mean to say things I don't say, and don't mean to say a lot of the things I do.
I don't understand what is going on with me. By the time I've managed to describe half-decently what I am feeling and thinking, it has all changed again and I'm just as confused and lost as before.
A few of you have tried really hard in the last 24 hours to help me and I'm not making it easy. But it's because I can't. Everything I say is true when I say it but might not be true anymore by the time you read it. I don't know if that even makes any sense...
When I am feeling that overwhelming hopelessness that I've been feeling so much of lately, I feel like that is how I have felt perpetually for months and months.. but then an hour or two later, when my mind is distracted and I'm feeling alright I feel like a jackass for pretending I am doing worse then I am.. but when I'm letting it out it is true - I am in immense pain. i don't know if anything I am saying makes any sense.. I can't figure out how to put into words what is going on in my head right now.
I just want to say thanks to everyone who is trying to help me get through this and who has given me what advice they can. And I want to say sorry if it seems like I'm not taking your advice.
If you really want to get better, you can. Go see a doctor asap.
We can only throw you a lifeline; you have to swim.
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