I've been going through something similar with muscle relaxants. The insurance approves the shifty ones that don't work and reject the ones that do. I talked to a rep yesterday and asked about a muscle relaxant. She asked "is this a vitamin?" I said no it's a muscle relaxant. Then a minute later "is this a vitamin?" I might as well talk to a chimpanzee. Morons. I feel your pain. Keep at it. If the appeals process fails, maybe talk to a lawyer or other advocate.

:( that is awful that you cant get the medication you need. Can you reach out to the people you pushed away? you arnt a failure, just having a bad episode and things will get better in the end. if theyre not better, then its not the end.

HUGS...................................................
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DRENA B
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That feeling of being isolated and different is part of the depression: you don't feel so different or misunderstood when you come out of it.

So it's temporary, is what I mean.

As to this company: of course they don't care. They don't know you exist. They don't give the tiniest little firetruck about you, that's normal and to be expected.

the real question here is: do you? Do you give a damn about you? Because if you care, then you need to show it. You need to fight for you.

medications are neither here nor there. You can be drugged to the gills; if you don't care about you it won't help. Or you can have no pills at all, but if you care about you, it won't matter.

So go inside yourself and ask if you care about you, if you love you, if you want you to be happy. And then go after what you have decided you want. It's your duty to yourself. You are your own first obligation. :)

xx take care!

Unfortunately, the insurance company doesn't care. They only care about profits. This is not your fault and in no way makes you worthless. Maybe ask your doctor for a suggestion as to what to do. I wish I had better advice in this area.

When an insurance company refuses the medication, ask to speak with the medical specialist. Usually the person who is denying your request is a clerk with no medical knowledge.

I can not remember the article where I read it, so not sure what the name is, however, take down the name, title, number (including extension), and keep asking until you can speak with a medical specialist.

Do not give up.

the other thing to do is see if the pharmacutical company has a way to help you out sometimes reduced rates on expensive meds or free...it is called perscription assistance programs....

and Montel Williams always advocated for Partnership for Perscription Assistance which is a program that will look at the meds you need or take and see which they can help you get cheaper or free...call their 800 which is 800 4ppanow I think...but google it and it will show the correct number....it helped when I was not insured...I do not know if it will help if you have insurance though...try to see for yourself...

Yes definitel look into programs for free or reduced fee meds. Your area mental health center should have that information. And yes look into seeing some of these friends that you have pushed away. They can be a great source of support. And you are not worthless or a failure. You have to fight those thoughts and feelins and not let the depression win. You are strong. You can do this. And keep posting.

I understand the feeling when you push everyone away. I finally understand how important it is to be around others and how happy it makes me feel when I do hang out with others. The hard part is getting myself to that point. Take one step at a time and do not get down on yourself if you fail or if others are failing you!