Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Well finally out of hospital.. I don't really feel any different expect more down then I was when I tried killing myself. My own dad can't even look at me. I know it upset my family that I wanted to die. But living everyday like this... It's just suffering.. Not being able to be happy, last fucking years have been draining. Physically I'm here, but my heart isn't. Friends gone, girlfriend gone, family is about gone. This semester of school is done for me, another one down the drain. I see death as an escape from this painful life. Life means nothing to me. Simply nothing. Just a dark void that I seem to be trapped in. How I wish I could just escape into my dreams. Live there switch places with this mortal life. But that only exists in fairy tales. Looking at my bandaged arms why couldn't it just ended.. Why was I spared to continue this painful journey. I just don't understand...
I gave myself fifty years. Hay what's a little child to do eh? in that forty years I lived for myself. I tried everything and anything with a few exceptions and most of those were of a sexual nature, but I lived. Yes I got into trouble, did many stupid things but hell I had no one to show me the way I just had to do things that seemed to work for other people, I figured those things just might work for me.
you are young.... give yourself a chance.....just do it for yourself....
one drawback to my time schedule and that was when the time came I didn't realize that making a bargain with ones self could have such a hold that late in life...it was scarey....
I hate life and wish it would end, I pray every night to die in my sleep.
I don't understand why people who long for death are still living
while people who love life often die young or tragically, it makes no sense.
I don't have any answers for you, but I feel your pain. You aren't alone.
Everything happens for a reason and we are alive for some purpose. I hope you can find your way out of the darkness eventually and find a will to live. I'm here for you if you need to talk/vent. Sorry you're feeling so low:/