I know exactly what you mean. Only the love I have for my sons has stopped me in the past and it can be tough realising that you're the most important person in someone's life.

I don't believe that suicide is selfish. I know you believe that everyone would be better off without you. But that's just not true, it really isn't. It won't always be this bad.

Are you seeing a Psychiatrist? Are you on meds, having therapy? These things need to be looked at, or looked at again. Depression is an illness, no matter what causes it, and if you had strep throat, for example, you'd take the antibiotics and rest. No different with depression, it's just a lot tougher to get through. But you WILL get through it.

Two years back, I would have told you that I would take my own life one day, it was just a matter of when. Now I don't want that to happen, but I never believed I would get better. That's the bummer with depression. You will get better, and until you DO you have to take each day at a time, be kind to yourself, distract yourself from the thoughts that ambush you. Being here has helped me so, so much. I wish that for you too.

Im glad you love your mother so much. Are you seeing anyone about your problems. try journaling and talking about whats going on. Depression is awful, dont be afraid to ask for help. (gentle hugs)

Thank God for loving Mothers. I understand where you are coming from, if not for loving my family, I would not be here either. Matter of fact it was my grandson ZaZa that saved my life...long story.

Whatever you are going through must be painful as hell. Suicidal thought are hard to live with. I still have them, they pop up out of no where. I take meds and see a pdoc for it but occasionally they do pop up. The thing about them now is they are passing thoughts, I know I won't act on them, as where before I was very serious about accomplishing suicide. That is a lonely place to be.

If you ever need anyone to talk to I am on in the early morning US central time. I'd love to be of help is I can.

I go to a therapist but I'm not taking medication. I used to but I refuse to go back on it. I also have an eating disorder and the last medication I was on made me BLOW UP and swell up and gave me a face full of acne. Plus, I just don't want to do that all again. I don't want to see a Dr. I don't want to take pills. Plus, I tried almost every single depression medication out there and none of them worked.

I just can't do this. I think about suicide again all the time. I'm so depressed.

Thank you guys for the support. I don't know any of you but sometimes I feel like this is the only place where people understand.

Have you tried the naturopathy approach. A few things you could add
to your diet Omgea-3 Vit b groups and amino acids.

Have you tried the naturopathy approach. A few things you could add
to your diet Omgea-3 Vit b groups and amino acids.

Too many people mistake a hatred or intolerance of pain for a hatred or intolerance for life. Please understand that death is not an answer for unendurable pain. Never mind how I found that out.

THe point is, if you can share that pain with others, it will become less. I promise you, that really works. It is a principle of spirituality.

The only thing greater than life is love. If you have love in your heart, you have life in your heart. And love is the most potent energy of all.

Let it flow. Don't give up. You are needed, loved, and valued.

Have you tried the naturopathy approach. A few things you could add
to your diet Omgea-3 Vit b groups and amino acids.

Too many people mistake a hatred or intolerance of pain for a hatred or intolerance for life. Please understand that death is not an answer for unendurable pain. Never mind how I found that out.

THe point is, if you can share that pain with others, it will become less. I promise you, that really works. It is a principle of spirituality.

The only thing greater than life is love. If you have love in your heart, you have life in your heart. And love is the most potent energy of all.

Let it flow. Don't give up. You are needed, loved, and valued.

Have you tried the naturopathy approach. A few things you could add
to your diet Omgea-3 Vit b groups and amino acids.

Too many people mistake a hatred or intolerance of pain for a hatred or intolerance for life. Please understand that death is not an answer for unendurable pain. Never mind how I found that out.

THe point is, if you can share that pain with others, it will become less. I promise you, that really works. It is a principle of spirituality.

The only thing greater than life is love. If you have love in your heart, you have life in your heart. And love is the most potent energy of all.

Let it flow. Don't give up. You are needed, loved, and valued.

Too many people mistake a hatred or intolerance of pain for a hatred or intolerance for life. Please understand that death is not an answer for unendurable pain. Never mind how I found that out.

THe point is, if you can share that pain with others, it will become less. I promise you, that really works. It is a principle of spirituality.

The only thing greater than life is love. If you have love in your heart, you have life in your heart. And love is the most potent energy of all.

Let it flow. Don't give up. You are needed, loved, and valued.

Too many people mistake a hatred or intolerance of pain for a hatred or intolerance for life. Please understand that death is not an answer for unendurable pain. Never mind how I found that out.

THe point is, if you can share that pain with others, it will become less. I promise you, that really works. It is a principle of spirituality.

The only thing greater than life is love. If you have love in your heart, you have life in your heart. And love is the most potent energy of all.

Let it flow. Don't give up. You are needed, loved, and valued.

Woah everyone's comments are tripled.

Maxheadroom- I have tried ECTs?

Hmmmm. DS gremlins working overtime.

By ECTs do you mean Electro Convulsive Therapy?