I wish there was a simple answer to give. The truth is though, everyone is different. I can tell you that for me things have gotten much better. I worked with a therapist for a while and did get on a low dose of meds which also helped. Have you gotten any treatment for your depression? I'm sorry that you're suffering hun ((hugs))

Thanks chelle...
I feel like Ive tried everything... been in a psychiatry for a year, a therapist, different kinds of medication, moving away, travelling, spirutuell stuff, energetic work, sport, art, music, starvation, no sleep for a week, charity work...etc. still I nothing changes ...
It`s just the way I am...
I`ve tried to end it several times but everyone is so cautious around me that I haven`t succeeded jet.
Maybe I just have to accept what I am...

Some people have outbreack for 4 months and that it is go away. I had mild depression with anxiety for 8 years but my anxiety was constantly increasing. I had very bad outbreack for 8 months. It started to get somewhat better but it was because found finaly Elavil. If I would not find it I do not know whther it would improve. Before that I tried many antidepresants and they did not help. Elavil also just reduced intolerable anxiety but depression is still there. Some people said that Effexor is good to help with depression I will try it next if it will not help I do not know what else to do. If you find correct antidepresant you can mange symptoms to come to tolerable level. Depression should go away even on its own but it is very hard to survive the symptoms. Other thing you should consider that if you were taking drugs for long period part of it drug sideeffects and withdraval. I used to take neuroleptics like Risperdal and they would make symptoms much worse. Now as i try go of Elavil I am having horrible headaches too. So you do not know whther you still have depression or it is from drugs you take. If you do not have like horrible depression you might try to go off medications. I had manageble depression for 7 years and this year I had horrible outbreak and had to use medications.

Sel;f injury I would say can be caused by anxiety not by depression. Before I ever had depression outbreak I would have spells of anxiety when my head felt like it is going to explode if I will not do anything in such cases I would hit the door or wall with my thist or run or break stuff around till it goes away.Which is also kind of selfinjury because you hand joings will get bad if you do that often enouh. I tried hit car tire but it would take much more effort to improve the condition as suppose to hiting something hard. I tried not to cut myself but one time I attemptewd to do it because it leaves marks. Also I am bad about pulling hair-not on my head because that would be visible too. When I got this outbreak anxiety was so unmanageble that nothing was helping including selkf injury. It lasted 7 horrible months till I took Elavil which reduced my anxiety and head does not feel like it exploading though it feels funny anyway but much more tolerable. It did not do anything for depression so I do not know what to do with that.