Are you getting treatment for the paranoia?

Your avatar is totally mesmerising. :)

I dont understand?

can you ....build on that ....I get you realy feel ..on the outside ..and that the world has gone crazie and not in a good way ...at least that is what I think you are saying ....lets talk ......

Muskrattiger: yes! I can't relate; connect to it & I feel completely alienated. I've always been an outsider but there older I get the more distant I've become...

"I've always been an outsider but there older I get the more distant I've become..."

Same here, and I think many factors play into that...but I do not think this world is actually out to get me. Rather, it seems more like people are looking for or dependent upon a sense of security in material things while surrounded by people who appear successful on the outside and are afraid of (or simply do not understand any need for) those of us willing and able to bring different things (such as unconditional commitment) to the table.

(leejosepho) I don't think the world is out to get me (at least most times!) but there just seems to be an alliance (of the large majority) of folks with exclusive superficial & materialistic objectives - as you mentioned...those not on-board with this 'life-style' are denigrated as 'weird'...

Okay so you're not really paranoid. Have you thought about meeting people like yourself through meetup.com? You can get with others who have similar interests. I wouldn't worry about the people you can't relate to. Find people you can relate to and spend time with them.

Sound & practical advice Heidi...I've instead spent my energy systematically putting up fences to keep the world out when I've been imprisoning myself instead...creating a life unique to me will be difficult as I have not defined my own specifications...