Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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mal66 04/09/2012

I am in a constant, daily struggle for survival. There are days when I can't even will myself out of bed & literally cuss that another day is upon me! I'd rather sleep my life away - atleast in my dreams I am living while I'm living a nightmare when I'm awake! I don't remember what happiness felt like.. I've felt this way (despair, hopelessness, misery) for the better part of over a year and am wondering if this is my life's new 'norm'; I don't believe I'll last much longer..

ElenaNJ 04/09/2012

i hear you mal.it was a year ago that i was in the hospital and hiding in my bed for hours, and going to sleep for the night at 5:30 or 6pm. Still it is similiar. A little better only bcz I have gotten engaged and forced to come out of my slump.

Yes, I 'm afraid it is the new norm, unless circumstances change. I wrote another post here last week, saying how can I go on every day, for the rest of my life without any drive in my life, any spark of excitement any will to live.

What is it that has you so sad? I do know what it is for myself. Will it be solved tomorrow, No.

YOu shouldn't have to feel the way you do.

WallyBear 04/09/2012

Dear Mal,

I once could not remember what Happiness felt like.
After 6 years, of total darkness,I began to believe that I would ever feel Happy again.
Please don't give up..........
Your Happiness is not gone. It really isn't. It is waiting for you to get well.
Much Peace And Healing To You.

SingforLife 04/09/2012

Don't give up hope. Just remember you are not alone. People here at DS know EXACTLY how you feel. I know I do. But don't lose faith. There are down days, yes, and some are unbearable. But you've made it this far, don't throw all of the away.

You will feel happiness again one day, I promise. But it won't come easily. Just keep the faith.

I wish you every happiness and the best of luck.

STAY STRONG.

deleted_user 04/09/2012

Please don't give up. I too felt like Wally did and now I'm happy.

Life will change for you. Please don't give up.

DCUK 04/09/2012

JUST PLAIN OLD SIMPLE HUGS....IVE HERD THAT THEY GO A LONG WAY X;]DC

deleted_user 04/09/2012

((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))) for you, Mal

mal66 04/10/2012

Thanks for your replies - it gives me some glimmer of hope that somewhere, out there, better days may be on the horizon..until then, I trudge thru another day..

immarcie 04/10/2012

I'm proud of your committment to get through another day....today may very well be the one that brings at least a small measure of happiness to you....keep your eyes and heart open so you don't miss what may yet to come, ok????

mal66 04/10/2012

When it really comes down to it, I don't have too much of a choice; sure I could end it but at this point the inertia of plowing thru another day outweighs ending this life and venturing into the unknown..
It is like exiting a building & the doors locking behind you and you can't get back in. The conditions outdoors may be much worse than what it was inside..guess for once, my pessimism works for the best..

deleted_user 04/10/2012

Gentle Huggs. Please dont give up. Try to believe things will start looking up for you. Just take it one step at a time.

I am sending you support, prayers and all the huggs you want.
xoxoxo

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