...how close you are to caring out a suicide mission? I have up and down mood cycles; my lows carry me lower and lower (this is on meds - Celexa). My ups only take me to a neutral position where I am not chronically depressed, but not happy...I don't know what it's like to be happy - I've, infact, given up on ever achieving happiness!
I thought more and more about how to carry out my plans of suicide - I already purchased a gun - my family is totally unaware; I'm slowly giving up. I'm losing a piece of me every day; I am in such despair!...