Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I have been contemplating whether I should post this because I am scared that people will think that I am just seeking attention. I really hate that some people would say something like that when they do not even know the person, but maybe I am. I need attention because quite honestly if I don't I don't see the point of living. I know I am going to regret posting this in like 30 minutes, but right now I am so scared. Ok, this is my latest journal entry. No need to respond if you don't want to. I am so screwed up that I really do not know what I am doing:
I am going to do something. I have to do something. I have to get rid of this pain somehow. I cannot take this shit anymore. It is pointless in trying to get better. No matter how hard I try there are always going to be people who are going to look down upon me and say that I am weak. They are right: I am weak.
My pain is so bad and I am too afraid to tell anyone. I cannot tell any person because I do not want to seem like I am seeking attention. Nothing is working for me anymore. There is no point in me being here anymore. I need help, but not getting it from the people that I thought could help me. I just want to cry, but I cannot. My emotions are dead. I want to die, but I cannot. I want to be gone, yet can't pull my self together to do it.
There is so much pain in this world, that I need to get away from it all. I cannot pretend that I am okay anymore; I am not.
I am going to do something. I have to do something. I have to get rid of this pain somehow. I cannot take this shit anymore. It is pointless in trying to get better. No matter how hard I try there are always going to be people who are going to look down upon me and say that I am weak. They are right: I am weak.
My pain is so bad and I am too afraid to tell anyone. I cannot tell any person because I do not want to seem like I am seeking attention. Nothing is working for me anymore. There is no point in me being here anymore. I need help, but not getting it from the people that I thought could help me. I just want to cry, but I cannot. My emotions are dead. I want to die, but I cannot. I want to be gone, yet can't pull my self together to do it.
There is so much pain in this world, that I need to get away from it all. I cannot pretend that I am okay anymore; I am not.
what is screwing you up is a nasty monster called depression.
please keep talking with us, we want to help. if you prefer, it can be done privately.
or have they told u so?
You have to hang on, no matter what - cause one day, you will come out on the other side - and it will be good!
Family & friends: anyone who has not been severely afflicted with depression don't get it. They never will until they are in that situation, so you need to just accept that. They don't understand the amount of pain, they crying, the wanting to drive your car over the edge.
It is understandable that you hate everything. Things I liked to do before my crash, I hate doing now. Even my taste in music changed.
People are on this site for help. Ask for it. There are plenty of people here that can help you and offer advice on how to cope. Sleeping through the pain is one good way. The less I had to think about stuff, the better. I was totally alone when I had my first crash for about 9 months. I survived, and you can too...even if it just one minute at a time.
Remember and practice tha art of positive thinking, and yeah, What is going on that is hurting you inside so much. Share with us what is happening in your life to hurt you like this please. We need to know the cause of the problem to help you find a solution o.k.
I am thinking about showing my doctor my journals as well. It's only 40 pages at 8pt font.
There are a lot of things in my journals that my doctor doesn't know about... my self harming for one.
I am hoping seeing this she can get me the help I need.
I am finding that with 100% honesty and bluntness is the only way I am going to get help.
You can do the same. It will help YOU more in the long run.