Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I have been contemplating whether I should post this because I am scared that people will think that I am just seeking attention. I really hate that some people would say something like that when they do not even know the person, but maybe I am. I need attention because quite honestly if I don't I don't see the point of living. I know I am going to regret posting this in like 30 minutes, but right now I am so scared. Ok, this is my latest journal entry. No need to respond if you don't want to. I am so screwed up that I really do not know what I am doing:
I am going to do something. I have to do something. I have to get rid of this pain somehow. I cannot take this shit anymore. It is pointless in trying to get better. No matter how hard I try there are always going to be people who are going to look down upon me and say that I am weak. They are right: I am weak.
My pain is so bad and I am too afraid to tell anyone. I cannot tell any person because I do not want to seem like I am seeking attention. Nothing is working for me anymore. There is no point in me being here anymore. I need help, but not getting it from the people that I thought could help me. I just want to cry, but I cannot. My emotions are dead. I want to die, but I cannot. I want to be gone, yet can't pull my self together to do it.
There is so much pain in this world, that I need to get away from it all. I cannot pretend that I am okay anymore; I am not.
I am going to do something. I have to do something. I have to get rid of this pain somehow. I cannot take this shit anymore. It is pointless in trying to get better. No matter how hard I try there are always going to be people who are going to look down upon me and say that I am weak. They are right: I am weak.
My pain is so bad and I am too afraid to tell anyone. I cannot tell any person because I do not want to seem like I am seeking attention. Nothing is working for me anymore. There is no point in me being here anymore. I need help, but not getting it from the people that I thought could help me. I just want to cry, but I cannot. My emotions are dead. I want to die, but I cannot. I want to be gone, yet can't pull my self together to do it.
There is so much pain in this world, that I need to get away from it all. I cannot pretend that I am okay anymore; I am not.
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
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I'm trying to exercise daily. I was doing fairly well until I sprained my ankle 2 weeks ago but now I'm getting back on the horse. Today I walked over a mile with my arm weights that are about 22lbs total. I was out of shape and it was hard on my arms. I also did my 30 situps. I'm also going to drink a lot of water and try to eat healthy. I do tend to have a sweet tooth but I'm cutting...
And DON'T listen to anyone who tells you its wrong to post these things I'd rather take five minutes out of my life to read this than hear about you doing something in isolation we'll all regret.
As for the rest... We arehere to offer our opinions/advice to help you... you'd never get that unless you asked.
According to the Suicide Prevention Course I was required to take for my job, the reason people want to end life is to end the pain you currently feel.
What you NEED to do is keep going back to the reasons you WANT to Live. The things you want to to the things you want to work towards, the people you want to see again. I KNOW it's easier said than done, really I do, but keep trying to replace the pain with happy things. Pets you love, a family member that you love, the sunny days you love. WHAT do you Like or Love when you do feel good.
Maybe you are seeking attention, but you are trying to reach out for someone to help you live. If someone gets on your case about that, tell them stuff a mop up their fucking ass .. broad side first.
I have been self harming for 23 years. There are days I can barely function.
You are showing how strong you can be by reaching out to us for help.
Please keep talking to us.
Please do not cut. I've been there, am currently fighting the battle not to hurt myself.
Yes, there is much pain in the world, but you don't need to add to yours by hurting yourself.
*hugs*