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Long story short, a lot of you know it already. I broke up with him last July, it was a mistake. I still love him. He has known that I have seriously wanted him back since the end of December. We never did stop seeing each other completely. We spend time together and have fun but he hasn't decided if he will take me back or not. I've been grieving our old relationship and hoping for a chance for a new one at the same time.
It's been 3.5 months that I've been waiting for him to decide. Tonight I finally told him I couldn't do this anymore. He has to make a decision, I cannot let this control my life anymore. Either we try and work it out, or I move on. I don't like this in limbo stage anymore.
So he is deciding. I am so scared of what his answer will be. At the same time I am relieved. Soon I will either be able to move on or not. No more not knowing.
I know if he decides no, that I'll survive. Life will go on and I will feel better some day. I will marry someone else and have kids with them. Life will work out. BUT it will be very hard. I feel like the pain I've felt is only a preview of what will come. The pain I've been having is bad and he's still in my life. What happens if it is totally over? I'll be so sad. I think I cry a lot now...
But I do understand that it will eventually get better and that I'll survive.
But I am so scared. Yesterday I slept the entire day. I am letting this take over my life and cause me to be depressed.
It's been 3.5 months that I've been waiting for him to decide. Tonight I finally told him I couldn't do this anymore. He has to make a decision, I cannot let this control my life anymore. Either we try and work it out, or I move on. I don't like this in limbo stage anymore.
So he is deciding. I am so scared of what his answer will be. At the same time I am relieved. Soon I will either be able to move on or not. No more not knowing.
I know if he decides no, that I'll survive. Life will go on and I will feel better some day. I will marry someone else and have kids with them. Life will work out. BUT it will be very hard. I feel like the pain I've felt is only a preview of what will come. The pain I've been having is bad and he's still in my life. What happens if it is totally over? I'll be so sad. I think I cry a lot now...
But I do understand that it will eventually get better and that I'll survive.
But I am so scared. Yesterday I slept the entire day. I am letting this take over my life and cause me to be depressed.
And I never believe someone who breaks up should ever "get back" with the person they broke up with. I think that is the heart forgetting what the brain saw that drove the two people apart.
SO - I am sorry for your pain. I pray that you find that special someone soon. You deserve that. Maybe go to a Brewer game or (soon) hang out at the dells or someplace fun. Your guy will come along.
Gods blessings to you.
Healing doesn't mean the damage never existed, it means the damage no longer controls your life.
Hugs GB
I encourage YOU to think about making the decision for yourself instead of letting this person make the decision for you - that is - don't let someone else control your feelings, your heart, your thoughts. Do what is right for you :)
take a break, dont see/date anybody. see how u feel about just being single. cos sometmes we most tend to fall back or get into a relation just cos we need soembody. I have felt that many times.