The thing about depression is that sometimes it doesn't matter whether your life is "good" or not and it, by it's self, is a real problem. It's not rational and doesn't necessarily follow logic and feelings of guilt are always crippling and they can definitely compound depression. If the meds you're on are not working or helping, then I would talk to your Dr. about trying something else or adding some other medication to help with things. I would also try to find some way of seeing a therapist to talk to who would be able to help with the way you're feeling.

I really hope that you feel better soon:-)

I am sorry that things have taken a turn for the worse for you. I sometimes get quite depressed despite taking meds. I have never found a drug that would make the depression leave for good. I think that no pill is able to help us through some of life's curve balls: deaths of those close to us, illness, financial ruin, or a bad marriage etc. For those times having a therapist is helpful. I am sorry you can't get to one easily. I had one counselor who I was able to see on the weekend, maybe that might be possible. If you absolutely cannot get therapy (or even if you do) then coming here to DS can be real helpful. You will get a lot of support from some great people here and the price is right. Stick around a bit and make some friends. Most people don't give DS a good try, they hit and run. We would love to have you here and I am sure you will help others in time, which in and of itself is a healing thing to do. Message me anytime!

Hi, I can relate. I am also a professional. You need support. I hid my depression because people judge you. It took awhile for medication to work but it finally did. I forced myself to go to a psychiatrist because I could not live with the pain of depression. It is a chemical imbalance. If you get Netflix you can get The Emotional Life episode 2 which follows twin girls...one who has depression and one who doesn't. It educated my husband about depression and after that I realized he had an understanding of it. It shows what happens in the brain. Go for help. We have to take care of ourselves. Depression is temporary eventhough when you are in it you feel it will never leave. I am well now. You will be,too, if you get the right help.

I want to make an amendment to what I said here. I do believe that meds can make rough times much easier to cope with, but for me I have found that at certain times my depression has overtaken and defeated the medication. What works for one may not work for another. I just wish anti-depressants worked for me the way anti-psychotics do. Don't be discouraged because the meds aren't working. It is just time to try a different med and to find some way you can get to a therapist. I hope you get feeling better soon!

Depression does not discriminate like we do. If you are motivated to be helped you will find help.
I am a mother also, and the best thing i think any of us can do is to put ourselves first when things are going south in our hearts.
I know the small town bit, but, your purpose in getting help may be more far reaching than you could ever have imagined.
Strength and courage to you on your path.