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Obeylix 11/14/2011

Why is it I am going through my second dose of therapy knowing where I'm going wrong, in terms of thought processes leading into NATS etc but I cannot apply it?
My mood is dropping again.
Today my therapist asked me whether I wanted to continue the sessions or give up as we seem to hit a wall. I'm not mad, she's a good therapist but the tools given through CBT and DBT have been given to me, she is just refreshing them, so she has a point.

I am just baffled as to how I am supposed to maintain a steady ship for any period of time. I eat well, exercise often, unwind when needed, read and stimulate the mind, take my medication and try to have a regular sleep pattern, all to no avail. I am beyond understanding anymore.

It is all very frustrating and depressing. With everything else I have been dealt this year, this crash is too much. I genuinely cannot be bothered anymore.

heretic 11/14/2011

I'm sorry you seem to hit a wall. Maybe it just takes more time to continue to make break throughs. You're doing all good things for yourself and all you can do is continue to take care the best you can. I know it's hard. Be gentle with yourself and don't give up. Maybe just take a little break if you need one. But don't give up, you've come a long ways. Big Hugs

deleted_user 11/14/2011

I couldn't say it any better the heretic. Be gentle with yourself and don't give up. You have a lot of friends here who care about you. I wish I had an answer. hugs

deleted_user 11/14/2011

I crash like this often, and I cannot stand it. Tonight I'm so restless I feel like crawling out of my skin, and nothing I do makes it any better.

Sorry my friend, it saddens me to see you struggle. I wish there was something more I could do. We should just steal a pirate ship...they're plenty easy to maintain with enough rum :)

Hugguns you!

deleted_user 11/14/2011

awww i am sorry you have hit a wall. You are doing everything right sometimes it just takes time to see the results of all of your efforts. I think that if you still can't get over the wall or break through maybe seeing a different therapist could help give a new perspective and different techniques for you to try and use. Depression is a really hard thing to beat and requires so much effort when you are to tired and depressed to go on. Keep fighting!!

beachside 11/15/2011

Hello Obeylix

I have so much compassion for what you have written. At this point I feel the same way. I eat well, walk, meditate, listen to music, go to therapy, walk the beach to relax, etc. I just have to believe that this illness will be managed again for you, for me and everyone else.

I am sorry you feel this way, you are doing all the right things to get and stay well. I wish you so much wellness on your journey.

deleted_user 11/15/2011

I don't believe it is easy to stay sane and do what your therapist is saying. Please be easy with yourself. I can definately understand your frustation as I have had two therapists who are like this too with me where they say to stay positive, work on your thoughts. I actually want someone to listen to me and help me rather then say stop and just stay positive. It isn't easy when your therapist asks if you still want to work with them. I liked the two therapists that I had too and it is hard to find a therapist who will listen and help rather then just say to be positive. If you want to be told to be positive go to church and get a serman. You are trying to get help. Sounds like you are doing a lot of positive things which is not easy especially when you don't feel like it and you experience depression which is what I am going through. Please do not be hard on yourself. Life is not easy.

Juice 11/15/2011

Nature of the beast my friend. Big hugs xoxox

deleted_user 11/15/2011

I wish I could say things that haven't already been said here. Maybe a fresh set of eyes and a fresh approach to treatment will help you past this wall. I know it's hard to start over again with a new therapist, but sometimes that fresh start gets you past that wall.

Please remember that you are loved and wanted. Please keep coming back here.

Annie

Chrissy555 11/15/2011

Sounds like you need a new therapist. Maybe you have hit a wall because she doesn't have anything else in her bag of therapy tricks.
Maybe you need someone to listen hard......follow your progress, support you in your efforts. Sometimes it takes hearing things over and over again before it becomes part of you.

I never want to hear my therapist say that when I am in the midst of a crash. It would cause a crash. Leaving is something that you should bring up, I would think, not her.

YIKES !!!!!!!!!!!!

Chrissy555 11/15/2011

In other words, she may have hit her wall, and it is not good that she is pinning this on you...........Just sayin............

There is a new site on DS......turning Negative Thoughts Around. Wanna try it????

Obeylix 11/16/2011

Thank you all. The input is much appreciated. My therapist is good, she is very good and I understand what she is saying %100. It's about taking charge somewhere to effect a real change. I understand my thought processes and where I go wrong so it is down to me to apply the skill given more readily. I am thankful for the way she has done things. Designed to empower the patient as it were.

I have stopped the past few days, completely. It has been both nice and scary. Have to hate that potential for a complete and utter collapse.

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