What you said is, unfortunately, true. I've done that very thing before. It's hard, but you gotta let go. Whoever bullied you before can't hurt you now. You're stronger now than you were before.

U should get a job as a shrink..haha
Actually ur theory is VERY true....so there isnt really anything in the present that might make you feel that bad...so chill out! be thankful that your life is much much better than before....love ur life and ur day!...enjoy the moment! YOU ARE LUCKY....

what happened in the past is dead...and the best way to lionize the dead is by burrin them...SO BURRY THESE MEMORIES AND LET IT GO DUDE....ur only 19 and there is A LONG WAY AHEAD OF YOU!

I say do as much activities as you can...get a job? Read more books...especially novels because they make u busy wither ur readin them or away from them...cuz u will always think, what will happen next? Who is the killer, who did it all?

And please please stay away from drinkin to make ur self busy or to take ur mind off ur past, because this will make you feel worse...maybe temporary better, but on the long run you will face the danger of bein alcoholic...I have read about that before...

Again I am tellin you...life is nothin fair...you cant enjoy ur past and present and future...u cant get it all...it would be unfair to get it all....so ur at least enjoyin ur present. I kno alot of people who dies before enjoyin anythin in their lives....the absolute happiness DOES NOT EXIST....because if you didnt feel the bitterness you will never feel the happiness...this is the philosophy of life dear....

Accordin to my religion, life is like an exam...we get through the good time and the bad time...and God sees how we deal with both times...like if we were thankful for our happy moments, and helped others and our community during the wellness...and we put up with the bad moments, and asked God for makin things better because we were patient and sucked it up....then life after death will be completely perfect....cause we had done all what we as weak creatures can do....we r weak cause we dont know but what we see and surround us, and we cant change our past, and we cant do anything if a dear person got dead, or we lost all what we had....

That's why whatever u had to go through in the past is dead...but not forgotten...and I am sure that God will make it up to you wither now or in the future...ur rights wont be wasted....ur future will be blooming and i am sure this experience made from you a WAY stronger and wiser guy who is ready to face WHATEVER is coming next!

Take care...and say hi to ur gf.....
=)
Cheers!
i hope i could help brother!

I'm gonna have to disagree with these folks. Not thinking about something won't make it go away. Sure, you need to get over the past. But that's not the same as drowning it out. Spending less time alone is great. But counseling is great, too. You need to be able to cope on your own.

The person Directly above me is correct. I had the same problem awhile back. Couldnt let go of my past. Tried to get rid of it. Tried to forget the terrible things I had done. And I could always be distracted from these thoughts with friends and video games. But, there was no way to be hanging out 100% of the time.

So, I got a psychiatrist. With that, I got meds and confronted my past. Made some serious apologies. And felt great. No longer dwelled on things I cannont change (The past). So it helped alot.

Im sure you'll find your way through this plethora of options from people who love you. Good luck!

I agree with Madalyn. You CANNOT ignore your past. What I have done is suppressed memories, and by doing that have created a cycle of memory loss. Your brain has a section for memory for a reason, and its not supposed to suppress them completely. They are there to warn you from possibly making the same mistakes over and over again.
The best way to get all the hurt off your chest is to get a therapist. Although it may be hard to talk about at first, you'll hopefully begin to trust them and talk through your past.
With my medication (which doesn't make me feel happy, I have to work towards making myself happy, but just regulates brain chemicals) and my therapy... my depression has taken a complete turn. And for the better (:

Thanks for the advice everyone. I do plan on going to a therapist and working on that. Thanks for all of the advice. I'm working on going to the therapist. I'll let you guys know how it goes.

It is certainly very possible. When depressed, it is very important to surround yourself with friends and loved ones. They are there to help you because they really care. I know how you feel though. When I get depressed, I tend to isolate myself quite often because I don't want to hurt anyone else if I don't have to. I have all that time to think and I too think about the past, and the mistakes I had made. I do understand that the past is quite hard to let go of, however, whatever it is, it's in the past and there is nothing you can do to change it, but you are however, in complete control of your future!! Just remember that. If you need anyone to talk to, feel free to message me. :)