I can't ceem 2 feel anything anymore except pain, so unfortunatly it shows me that this is real, not a nightmare. Since my dad became ill, i thought some people seemed very supportive but i'v found out that they are two faced liers who have stole the friends i did have. I'v never hurt anyone, n I wouldn't imagine going out my way just to hurt someone, so it's not like i deserve it, maybe i do i don't know :/. Also being played by a boy i liked alot, now that has seriously messed me up so i think who would want me now, so i go back n hold on to the fact that we could b 2gether, but i can't seem 2 ignore that because it will never come true. My dad is ok atm, but because i could have lost him 3 times last year while i was doing my GCSE's the emotions were repressed n there affectin me now, n making me feel really low, and i can't seem 2 say exactly how i feel. My family is very supportive but i just can't seem 2 feel better all the time, I talk feel better 4 a few hours then the next day, I feel the same as i did last time i wish i could drag myself out of this. Latly I can't eat properly, drink properly, sleep propely, n i'm turning 2 alchol again. Has anybody got any idea's on what i can do 2 help me get out of this. oh yeh n sorry bout the length of this.x
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