Oh hon, hang in there. I really know the feeling, I have done just the same thing, and now I am avoiding the one I trusted.
But trust is a funny thing, since you trusted your yl with something private, she probably will not use it against you, and probably not bring it up unless you do. since you trusted her, she must be a good person. Just think positive thoughts (I know, it is a stupid advice), and go about life like you did before telling her...
-Hugs!-

thanks... il try... but its hard...

I know how you feel there, it's painful telling people private things!
I hope they don't use it against you, but you must feel close or at least comfortable around them to speak with them. Im sure she wont and like millie said you trusted her so she must be a good person.

Hope you're ok and try to relax, try talking to someone else or one of us on here?

Trust your judgment. Humans naturally want to confide in each other, I'm sure your youth group won't tell anyone. I am 17 and pregnant and I defiantly know feels like to be betrayed and feel venerable, but I accepted that people will talk shit about me eventually and everyone in this small town will find out, no seance in being upset in something I can't control.

in my eyes, telling someone a huge secret about yourself, that no one else knows, shows an amount of strength. that is not being vulnerable.
also, she is a youth leader. there is that whole confidentiality(sp) thing. trust is a complicated thing, and if you are like me, which you seem. you worry about telling anyone anything. either because you are scared of allowing someone to see who you truly are, afraid that they will think differently of you or just leave. i am one of those people.
the night i told my boyfriend everything about who i am...i was scared he would end it.
i went way off.
did i make any sense?
oh and one more thing. becoming vulnerable does not mean death...please remember this

Hey I know its hard and it sucks like hell. Never letting anybody in. Heck thats life for most of us here. You don't need anybody to rescue you, you have the power to do it yourself. Learn to trust yourself and believe that you are a good person, and then it won't hurt and feel so scary to trust others. And trust my friend, is a beautiful thing so cherish it. I am sure your youth leader will be someone you can trust.

thanks u guys... i geus i am that way... ive been taken advantage of my whole life, and now i close up to not be vulnrable anymore... but it just makes it hurt worse... i jsut need to learn to trust again... but its really hard... thanks every1...