everything is going wrong. my boyfriend made em feel liek the most amazing thing in the world, 4 days ago he went to make a film wit his mate who i know and is applying for jobs and has got a job now. This is brillant news but i feel unloved. He has ignored me, didn't wnat to 2lk 2 me, never says any nice texts like i miss u or anything like he used to everyday. I havnt seen him 4 3 weeks and i miss him terribly and i sed i miss him on the fone and he just sed i know. He forgot we were supposed to go cinema 2gether and mumbled he had no money wen i know he had but spend it on fags and pizza. Now, he also sed he would stop smoking but he hasnt even tried. He also changed his pic on his fb account from me and him to him and his best girl mate. People have been saying dump him but i physically can't. I don't know y, but he means the world to me, and I don't seem to mean anything to him at all. I feel terrible. I have my A-level exams in a few weeks at college and they are really stressful. I have to get into uni because my life will be over if i don't. My parents expectations are really high, and i'm not as good as they want me to be. I'm also have alot of anger. I'v self harmed alot and managed to not do it 4 5 months now, but I punched walls 2day and my foot went through my wall and has caused a massive whole in my bedroom wall, and because my dad is a perfectionist, when he finds out it will be WW3. Seriously, i have lectures bout everything. Everything I do is never good enough. Iv been told to be more like my brother which is the definition of perfect. Does anyone have any advice for me by any chance, i just need some help because I can't stop drinking either and will little money duno wt i'm gonna do :'(