Depression - Teen Support Group
Teen depression is marked by persistent sadness, discouragement, loss of self-worth, and loss of interest in usual activities. Depression can be a temporary response to many situations and stresses. Teens may be more susceptible to depression due to the normal maturation process, the stress associated with it, and conflicts with parents as they become more independent.
So, I was watching the movie Cyberbully with my friends and something about how the support group was helping the chick out made me feel like I should do something.
Every person involved in this is online. Keep that in mind...
Back in February, I messed up badly with my best friend, Ashley, and at the time my boyfriend, Austin. Basically, I cheated on my boyfriend with her boyfriend, Bryan. Bryan happens to be Austin's best friend as well. As a result, I lost Austin as my boyfriend and almost lost Ashley as a friend. Bryan and I stuck together because neither one of us could have gone through it alone.
Since then, things have been good considering what happened. Ashley and I are fairly close to being back to normal, she and Bryan are still happy together, Bryan and I are good friends, and Austin well...he's half the problem. The other half is me.
The problem with Austin is the common "Ex-girlfriend wants the boy back, boy wants her as friend because he can't lose her but doesn't love her enough to date her, girl loves him too much to lose him so decides to deal with it" scenario. The thing is, Austin shows no signs of wanting anything to do with me. Every once in a while we'll have a moment and I'll know Austin means what he says when he says he still cares about me, but they don't come often enough. Forgetting about him would probably be the easiest option, but he's the only person in four years to get me over one of my past ex's and I owe so much to him for that. I can't just leave him because he's done so much for me. I don't know how to get my friendship with him solid. :/
The problem with me..is well...Ashley has forgiven me and Austin has forgiven me for what Bryan and I did. I haven't forgiven myself yet, and I think because of that I tend to take everything personally and I feel worthless and pathetic all the time. Like, today, Bryan said he was tired and Ashley was like "noo, don't go" and then I was like "ima go to bed" and they both just jumped to "okay, bye" as if they didn't care. I know it's stupid..but I can't seem to stop doing it. I don't know how I can forgive myself but I'm pretty sure I need to, to get back to normal.
Normal for me is happy, fun-loving, always laughing and smiling, and just being a fun silly girl with a child-like heart. For the past three months, those moments have rarely come. I'm crying a few times every week and I feel like I'm annoying someone else every other day.
No one has really been on my side about this, or there with me to help. They tend to avoid it if they can, or that's what it feels like. I don't know who I can turn to right now. :/
Every person involved in this is online. Keep that in mind...
Back in February, I messed up badly with my best friend, Ashley, and at the time my boyfriend, Austin. Basically, I cheated on my boyfriend with her boyfriend, Bryan. Bryan happens to be Austin's best friend as well. As a result, I lost Austin as my boyfriend and almost lost Ashley as a friend. Bryan and I stuck together because neither one of us could have gone through it alone.
Since then, things have been good considering what happened. Ashley and I are fairly close to being back to normal, she and Bryan are still happy together, Bryan and I are good friends, and Austin well...he's half the problem. The other half is me.
The problem with Austin is the common "Ex-girlfriend wants the boy back, boy wants her as friend because he can't lose her but doesn't love her enough to date her, girl loves him too much to lose him so decides to deal with it" scenario. The thing is, Austin shows no signs of wanting anything to do with me. Every once in a while we'll have a moment and I'll know Austin means what he says when he says he still cares about me, but they don't come often enough. Forgetting about him would probably be the easiest option, but he's the only person in four years to get me over one of my past ex's and I owe so much to him for that. I can't just leave him because he's done so much for me. I don't know how to get my friendship with him solid. :/
The problem with me..is well...Ashley has forgiven me and Austin has forgiven me for what Bryan and I did. I haven't forgiven myself yet, and I think because of that I tend to take everything personally and I feel worthless and pathetic all the time. Like, today, Bryan said he was tired and Ashley was like "noo, don't go" and then I was like "ima go to bed" and they both just jumped to "okay, bye" as if they didn't care. I know it's stupid..but I can't seem to stop doing it. I don't know how I can forgive myself but I'm pretty sure I need to, to get back to normal.
Normal for me is happy, fun-loving, always laughing and smiling, and just being a fun silly girl with a child-like heart. For the past three months, those moments have rarely come. I'm crying a few times every week and I feel like I'm annoying someone else every other day.
No one has really been on my side about this, or there with me to help. They tend to avoid it if they can, or that's what it feels like. I don't know who I can turn to right now. :/
I haven't been through what you have, i can only imagine and it seems really hard and I'm sorry you have to go through it practically alone.
I'm obviously on no one's side here because it's not my business, but i believe everyone makes mistakes and i think it's great that you've accepted that and want to fix things with Austin. I don't know how long it's been since you and Austin had broken up but maybe he still needs some time to accept it, sometimes on the outside someone can say they are 'ok' and 'they are fine' but on the inside they can still be really hurt. And that i know from experience.
I really think you deserve to be happy and crying few times every week doesn't seem remotely close. Fortunately i've been through that for the past year and a half so I know how it feels to have that constant feeling of feeling really sad, alone and empty. I think if you need to cry, cry. But if you can stop yourself you should do that, take some deep breaths, plug your ipod in and just sit back and relax or burry yourself in something you love. Even write out how you feel and why you think you feel it, it sounds stupid but i started doing it a while ago and it really helps to just get it out of your system especially when you have no one you can talk to.
I don't think Ashley and Brian meant to kind of make it sound like you can just go and they don't care, I think maybe possibly (and who knows cus i wasn't there) but they like each other again? or they want to spend more time together? I don't know, you know them best so put yourself in their shoes, im sure they didn't mean it in a bad way.
I hope this has kind of helped, sorry for the essay.
Good luck with your friends and I hope everything works our for you. You deserve to be happy, so don't give up :)
You can talk to me whenever if you ever need to.
xo Blue
The only thing you can to is admit you were wrong, sincerely apologize and give them space to heal. It takes time to rebuild trust, don't try to rush things.