Depression - Teen Support Group

Teen depression is marked by persistent sadness, discouragement, loss of self-worth, and loss of interest in usual activities. Depression can be a temporary response to many situations and stresses. Teens may be more susceptible to depression due to the normal maturation process, the stress associated with it, and conflicts with parents as they become more independent.

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A Thanksgiving ruined and led me here

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I ended up having the worst Thanksgiving ever. I feel like I need to get this out too, & I'm here becuz a crisis counselor pointed me here. 


I've been struggling with self worth and suicidal thoughts since I was a child. It was only yesterday and that day my mother was very stressed out with a family abduction incident that's been in our life for 5 months now. And my mother lashed out at me earlier in the day out of the blue so I did what I always do when she's like this and lock myself in my room. 


But we had planned a trip to go out of town for the holiday. So my immediate family is in the car and my father makes a mistake that pushes my stressed mother to breakdown, storm out of the car, and run from us. She slapped my father in the face and threatened for divorce. We drove after her which led me to get out of the car and run after her. She pushed me and yelled at me and left me in the streets. My father catches up and picks me up and for a while we don't know where my mother is. But my father parks the car to look in a hotel for her. 


So I'm left alone in the car with my younger brother who's crying and I'm debating whether or not I should get out, leave my brother, and kill myself because my family at the time had just fallen apart and my mother did not want me either. After all she left me in the streets again.


Things ended for the better but those feelings I had last night haven't gone away. And this abduction case is destroying my family already. I just got lucky last night and couldn't make up my mind on time but when something like this happens again I just don't know. I really think the only reason why I'm alive and writing this is because of my access to the crisis textline.


I put this post under 'Depression' because I exhibit signs and symptoms of severe depression whenever I'm evaluated but I've never been diagnosed. 

SophiaElise246
SophiaElise246
It sounds like you are going through a lot right now. But people on this site are all very understanding and helpful. Even just to vent. I really wish you didn't have to go through that. But you are worth living. I don't know you but the fact that you stayed in that car with your brother and you went on this site shows strength. I'm here for you if you ever wanted to talk.
aneptune
aneptune
Two years ago, my parents fighting got extremely bad. They usually disagreed but they had never fought like this (It never resulted in violent behaviour, only screaming matches in the late hours of the night). One night we had been coming home from one of a family friend's house for dinner, the night had gone really well, it was fun and no fighting had happened that night, that was until my parents started fighting in the car. I can't remember what they were fighting about, all I know is that it resulted in my father yelling at my mother to stop the car and storming out of the car while breaking a dish that had once been filled with salad in the process. My father walked the rest of the way home. We all sat in the living room while I tried to calm down my parents and stop them from fighting. My mother ended up threatening my father with divorce, that made me snap. I knew that My family couldn't afford to have two separate homes. I had been feeling like such a burden then because m family was having money problems and I was just a waste of space and money. I felt like if I didn't exist my little sister would have a much better life because she deserves so much better. A

Anyway the whole point of that was so I could tell you that you are not alone. Although our experiences aren't identical, you can always talk to me if you need to.
Kayla9976
Kayla9976
killing isn't the answer, i may seem like the best thing but it isn't. Stay strong, you have so many people on this website who will support you and i am here if you need to talk. Sometime you just need to remember what you love, what is important to to and will killing make things easier.

When my grandad died, i felt broken, all i wanted was to be with him. My Grandad committed suicide because he thought my whole family would be better without him - my grandad was pretty sick but it didn't make a difference. His death kill me inside and i wanted to die so i could be with him but i knew it wasn't the answer, that it wouldn't make things any better. i am fighting through life everyday even though it is hard. I had no one to lean on but you have me and everyone else on this website supporting you. If you need to talk i am here