Prayers to you, Boo 62. Don't beat yourself up.

Boo, it took me such a long time to finally quit and I know your feeling of being disappointed in yourself. I pray for strength and courage for you to finally make that move.

Keep trying. You'll get there...


Hugs,
Dennis

Boo...............Boo...........Boo..............Boo..........Boo ........Boo:):):)

What can I say??????? This is a subject I know NUFFIN about...........LOL

Like Jackie says, don't beat yourself up..........I'll beat ya up and then you can beat me up.

I am TRYING with the NJOY cig...........and I would be lying if I said I don't have some real cig as well (plenty of them)............but I figure for every one I don't smoke, I am ahead of the game......if only by a little...........baby steps:)

I took the Patch back (had a hard time returning it cause it is a tobacco product - but manager gave me a break:).......but after reading the fine print on the box, I knew I would screw it up........and end up making myself sick.......and hell, I am already sick enough with various other things.............LOL

You know I am here for you (as is everyone)........and just keep taking those Baby Steps:):):)

Boo. I heard somewhere a while back it takes several times before a smoker actually stops smoking for good. Like the others have said take baby steps. Try not to struggle with yourself be kind and patient instead.
I ditto Denny. "You'll get there".

Hugs...

Sorry to hear you have returned to smoking, but no need to beat your self up, it happens to the best of us!!! I "quit" several times before I really quit!!!
Val is right, each cigarett you smoke is destroying more lung tissue and soon you will be back on the oxygen.
The E-Cig is good to the extent all it provides is the nicotine, which is the addictive part, but not the tar and chemicals which is the worst part. But you are still getting the nicotine , and soon crave the "smoke" going into your mouth and lungs.
Honey, no one can quit for you, the only one that can do your quitting is you, not us, not Val, not anyone else.
You know you will always have our prayers, and hugs, and best wishes, but you have to reach way down inside and pull up some will power and resolve, and keep trying.
Excuses are just that, excuses. They are not reasons. We will always experience stress, problems, sadness, fears, all those things that make us human, but we don't all look for an excuse not to face it.
So you tried to quit, and you succeeded for a while. That is something to be proud of that shows you YES, you can do this. So pick your self up, put the cigs down, and try it again, and again, and how ever many times it takes. Understand what sets you off to reach for a smoke, then be aware of those times.If it were so easy, we all would have quit overnight, it does not work that way.
Forgive your self, start over, and concentrate on the upcoming surgery, that you have to be ready for.
We love you, and we have your back, Betsy. Prayers for you .
The patch will take away the cravings, but you have to WANT to quit.
Love you my Sister
Brenda

please don`t beat yourself up........I too give up and then start BUT take hope in the fact that people tell me they to did this until they eventualy gave up [I`m so hoping for that day for me]
From how it works over here the endoscopy is a local anesthetic so you are more drowsy than completely under, it makes a difference!!

Praying real hard for you...try not to stress yourself out over it, one day you will do it and hopfully that will be soon x x x

how bout i pray for "the willingness to become willing" for boo and deb?
i prayed that for 2 years before i got diagnosed with COPD & i quit with the e-cigs.
funny thing with the e-cigs is I smoked both cigarettes & e-cigs for a month or 2, because the e-cigs ARE different & i had to kind of get used to them. (the people i know that quit with e-cigs had to get used to them also; those that tried to "cold turkey" straight to the e-cigs ended up saying the e-cigs didn't work & threw them out).
then there was the point i said to myself...."okay jarca, you got the hang of them, time to stop the regular cigarettes."
and i MADE myself not buy any regular cigarettes to have around (face it, if they are in reach i'll always reach for the "easier/softer way").
one thing i found with quitting anything; is the minute i said i was going on a diet, quitting smoking,,,, i started craving it even more!!! the thought of going without made me want whatever i was trying to quit (my mind messes with me LOL)
so i didn't "quit" i just "waited"
if i wanted a cigarette, i'd wait for 5 minutes and go find something to do in the meantime (wow---was my house clean at this time LOL)
i also had to "wait" until i was off the computer to smoke.
& "wait" until i hung up the phone to have one.
& "wait" to reach my destination & NOT smoke in the car.
& "wait" for awhile after eating
.... you get the idea i suppose ;)
in other words i made little "rules" for myself & tried to "wait" through what were my usual places to smoke.
and to this day, i never think of it as i "can never have another cigarette" (ohhhh; doesn't that sound finale & just make ya want one?)....
i know if i want a cigarette i can go buy one at any time....i just choose to "wait" and not drive for awhile :D
good luck girls....addiction messes with my head, telling me how i need it and it will be scary to stop.....i had to mess with my head to counteract the addiction talking. and i had to ask god to help me, cuz i couldn't do it alone, but i could "wait" and let god do the rest.
:)
phew, i think thats the most i've said about smoking on this board, but loosing "drink coffee" hurt alot.
and i'm not ready to lose you ms. debbear or ms. boo ((((HUGS))))

Jarca, I agree 100% with waht you said. No one is ready to lose Boo or Debbear, and they need to realize that this is something that has to be done. Your idea of "waiting actually worked for me also at times I was on-off-on-off, ect. When I got out of the hospital the last time that I was so very bad off, and promised no more cigs!! But I knew as soon as I got home I would want one, path or not. I had mark totally clean out my car, (That smell is almost impossible to get out) throw away my car ashtray and every ashtray in my house. He washed the curtains and scrubbed the walls to get rid of the nicotine and smell, (You can not notice the smell until you have been not smoking for a while)and when I got home, it was better. No more smoking in my house I told everyone, and for me it was, if I want one, I can run to the store and get some, but I will wait until tomorrow , then wait until the next day. Once you get to the point ehe nicotine is leaving your body, and your sense of smell and taste returns, I did not want to pollute my lungs again. So I just kept lying to myself that if I wanted one I could buy some, and never doing it. As I have told folks before, sometimes the FEAR of quitting, takes over your common sense. Anyway, I did no mean to ramble, or take over your comment. Just wanted to say every thing you said is right on, and I pray these two ladies quit playing around with this and get serious. Boo has already proved she can do it, I am not sure Debbear is really committed to quitting. How can you screw up putting on a patch and taking it off 24 hours later? My heart goes out to both of them, and I am afraid this habit is going to come around and bite them in the rear, like it did me. BOO and BEAR, I care for you both, keep trying, it will be worth it.Try it Jarca's way, just say I won,t smoke now, maybe later, it helped her. You both have my prayers and best wishes
Brenda
Brenda

hello boo. remember me? oxyman. you commented on my reply to melissa about smoking and QUITTING a few days back. i guess you liked my no bs attitude about this whole situation. i`m new here, so i`m not sure how this ATTITUDE will sit with every one else, but...SMOKE AND DIE !...STOP SMOKING AND LIVE! pretty simple logic in the end. i know the reminder next to the comment box says to be positive and helpful, and that `s what i`m trying to do. i`m POSITIVE { from my OWN experience } that those of us with copd that are still smoking will get WORSE and those of us who STOP will slow down the disease. i think it`s HELPFUL { from my OWN experience } to BE HARD ON YOURSELF! DO BEAT YOURSELF UP! YOU are the one that has to do this! nobody else! the patch, hypnosis, nicotine gum, mind over matter...whatever it takes to stop...JUST DO IT!..as the saying goes. yes it`s hard! it`s VERY hard! but not as hard as it will be on those that you love that you leave behind when you`re DEAD because you didn`t have the willpower to stop sucking those tobacco sticks into your already diseased lungs.maybe this all sounds too brutal, but these are SOME of the thoughts that helped me quit after 45 years. when i was diagnosed in 2009, i was probably at stage 2. my doctor told me to QUIT, of course. i tried. i tried!? i would stop for a few days only to start again. i would be mad at myself for not being strong enough to quit. my friends and family would say " don`t be hard on your self. don`t beat yourself up about it. " so i didn`t. kept right on smoking. i wasn`t being HONEST with MYSELF! so...now here i am,4 years later, pretty much helpless, end stage copd with an oxygen tube hanging out of my nose 24/7, unable to do ANYTHING i could do 4 years ago.pretty much sucks! so you see boo, you still have a chance NOT to get here. take that chance of being uncomfortable for awhile, craving a cigarette. better than being uncomfortable for the rest of your life, like me, craving every breath! if i can do it..you can do it. it`s been almost a year for me and...LIFE GOES ON! breathe in....breathe out.

Wanting or hoping to quit smoking is not enough. We have to make it happen. We will quit when (and only when) we take responsibility and stop giving ourselves permission to smoke. When we say, "I can't quit, it's too hard, I don't have enough willpower, Im too stressed to quit, blah, blah, blah -- thats addiction talking. (Those are things I told myself for decades.) Until we stop playing the victim and take responsibility, we will wring our hands in frustration while lighting up the next life stealing cigarette.

I say beat yourself up a little and use your disappointment and bad feelings as a catalyst to beat nicotine addiction for good. Addiction is clouding your judgment telling you its too hard. You CAN quit. The more distance you put between youself and your last cigarette, the more empowered you will feel. Until then, fake it till you make it.

Make quitting smoking a priority.

Invest time educating yourself about addiction and understand why you cant have just one. (There is no such thing as just one.) I suggest you take the free online course at www.quitsmokingonline.com. This free course can help you see smoking for what it really is and help you change what you believe about smoking. It can help you develop a positive attitude about quitting. The course promotes cold turkey quitting, but people using nicotine replacement therapies or quit medications can benefit from the short course.

In the past Ive recommended www.quitnet.com as a good support forum. In my opinion, its in the top three best online support forums for people quitting smoking. Studies show that participation in a support group increases the odds of quitting smoking.

You may want to check your local hospital to see if there is a smoking cessation program. Find out if there is a Nicotine Anonymous group that meets in your area: https://www.nicotine-anonymous.org/index.php

Millions of people quit smoking every year and there is no reason you cant be one of them.

I promise you, as long as you dont smoke, it will get easier. Smoke and it wont. I smoked for 40 years. Today I dont need to smoke and I dont want to smoke. I have lost all desire to smoke. In fact, smoking is about as appealing as sucking on the tailpipe of a city bus. Now that I dont smoke, I wonder why I smoked as long as I did. The only thing smoking did for me besides create another crave was give me emphysema.

Whether or not you smoke is a choice and YOU control the outcome. Choose wisely, your life depends on it. Listen to Val.

Susan

"Trying is failure with honor. Don't try to do something, just do it" (James Ray).

I can't add any more than has already been said, except keep trying and good luck.

Gary

Fantastic and interesting comments, I never thought of calling it waitting rather than quitting sooooo I`m going to repeat that over and over start waitting. Your prayers would be most welcome and again good luck Boo x

You sound somewhat like myself. It's a very hard habit to break after a lifetime of smoking. I've quit 3 times myself and am now doing it again with the determination that this time I will make it. Don't beat yourself up for relapsing - we just have to find the determination to make it stick. I'm going to wish you the very best of luck and will think about you as I go through this also. Hope my thoughts can help you out. I haven't posted for a while because I've been doing well and staying busy but I had a flare up 2 weeks ago and am having trouble getting my oxygen levels to stay up so I'm going to be posting more since I'm stuck with this leash again. GOOD LUCK AND KEEP POSITIVE

Thanks Dollar!!!

Boo