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I'm feeling really scared about this fall semester coming up. It's a bunch of things tied together, really.
The short way to put is that my schedule is going to be awfully busy. I work part-time as a pharmacy technician -- it's a backup plan in case my plans for paralegal go nowhere -- and we've had interns helping over the course of the summer. They're gone now, and the owner of the place has dreams of empire that affect the workload on my side of the pharmacy (group home deliveries). It's a lock that I'll be working a couple of days a week -- Monday and Wednesday specifically -- and Saturday morning is not out of the question.
Meanwhile. to stay on my AS track, I've stacked three courses up for Tuesday and Thursday (three because that's how many I need to get insurance), one of which has a lab component that meets on Friday morning.
Between the two, it IS a lot that I am doing, and that scares me in a couple of ways. One is from a stress standpoint...I am very bad at managing it to start with, but when the pressure is on, it feels a lot worse. It was a wonder I didn't crack as bad as I normally do during the summer, but then I only took one course at a time over the summer. This wouldn't be so bad by itself, BUT...
...there's also trust problems. Problems trusting others, problems trusting myself. This does not bode well because my chemistry lab almost certainly involves group work, and I've just plain been suspicious of people ever since my senior high school class ravaged my hometown in a scavenger hunt just before graduation (this I was not a part of). I'm starting to make itty bitty baby steps on the trust thing, starting with small things that are almost certain to happen (I have to start somewhere), but I feel I am in a position where I have to make steps on that front that I am not ready to take, at least not right now.
This is why I'm scared about the fall...very sorry for being so long.
The short way to put is that my schedule is going to be awfully busy. I work part-time as a pharmacy technician -- it's a backup plan in case my plans for paralegal go nowhere -- and we've had interns helping over the course of the summer. They're gone now, and the owner of the place has dreams of empire that affect the workload on my side of the pharmacy (group home deliveries). It's a lock that I'll be working a couple of days a week -- Monday and Wednesday specifically -- and Saturday morning is not out of the question.
Meanwhile. to stay on my AS track, I've stacked three courses up for Tuesday and Thursday (three because that's how many I need to get insurance), one of which has a lab component that meets on Friday morning.
Between the two, it IS a lot that I am doing, and that scares me in a couple of ways. One is from a stress standpoint...I am very bad at managing it to start with, but when the pressure is on, it feels a lot worse. It was a wonder I didn't crack as bad as I normally do during the summer, but then I only took one course at a time over the summer. This wouldn't be so bad by itself, BUT...
...there's also trust problems. Problems trusting others, problems trusting myself. This does not bode well because my chemistry lab almost certainly involves group work, and I've just plain been suspicious of people ever since my senior high school class ravaged my hometown in a scavenger hunt just before graduation (this I was not a part of). I'm starting to make itty bitty baby steps on the trust thing, starting with small things that are almost certain to happen (I have to start somewhere), but I feel I am in a position where I have to make steps on that front that I am not ready to take, at least not right now.
This is why I'm scared about the fall...very sorry for being so long.
I find the best way to relieve stress for me is to have my mom take my son one night a week, and just do nothing for that one night. I don't worry about school or anything, just relax. Some time to yourself will do some good.
Lo, I realize I have been very slow in responding but I have just so felt frusrated lately that I didn't want to lash out randomly...huggles will be coming for you.
I totally get the feeling so overwhelmed you can't handle it thing. I would give anything to only deal with classes and one job though! Its insane trying to handle school, two jobs, and a kid. Most days I think I'm going to go crazy. Thank god for my fiance who generally takes on the parenting role so I can do my best to juggle the rest!
"The moment you think of giving up, think of a reason why you held on for so long."
I don't know why I've held on this long to be honest, I could've given up a long time ago. Giving up is not hard at all. Letting go is not hard. Holding on is. And I'm managing to do it, and if I can, so can you!