I've been in a relationship with an alcoholic for about 13 years now. We've broken up twice due his drinking and all the behaviors that go with it! The last time we got back together I promised him I wouldn't ask him to leave anymore and I fell for his promises of not ever putting me through all the negative junk from his drinking again. I was fooled! He said what he thought I wanted to hear and I took him back into my home and into my life. Now, I feel drained every single day. I feel unwanted by him because I'm 2nd to alchohol. He's lost job after job after job, but he still wants me to believe in him. I've asked him many times to get help, but he is very honest when he tells me he likes to drink and he doesn't want to get help. But, he makes me feel awful when I tell him we need to end our relationship. I don't even believe I'm in love with him anymore but I do care about him. How do I get myself out of this trap I've made for myself?