any advice on how to stop obscessing about a situation that i have no control over? i wake up every morning with negative thoughts in my head about what my family thinks of me concerning my sick sister and what they obviously think that i should be doing and what i am not doing. these family members have been so unsupportive of me in my past trials. i am not doing less than i would to get back at them exactly but its more like my work schedule that i will not use my paid time off for this as i have my own family issues that may require me to take off. when i am around these 2 sisters of mine all i hear about is what she is doing, or not getting to do, or the benefit that i coming up for my sick sister. thats a joke 2. she has no medical bills or transportation costs and will spend the cash on partying, both sisters will.
my son had open heart surgeries and they were less supportive that people that i worked with. they partied on while we went through so much.
but this is the thing, they sabortage me at every turn and say that i am petty, selfish, insensitive, and no matter what i say or do or how i say it or how i do it they twist it to make me look bad. they talk about all the people that are helping them very badly and use them for what they need. if they help alot they move to the top of the totum pole.
my biggest fear is the sitution after she passes. i feel that my relationship with my sister and her kids is going to be over. i am prepared for this as before she got sick i was doing alot of detachment work as being around them i felt very uncomfortable, under mined, like i just walked into a grouo that had been bashing me, unimportant, and basically just tolerated.
any advice or comments. going to start reading my previuos postings about this topic and valued comments.