My son has not relapsed, thankfully, but I have. I am not using drugs just falling into a funk (like I did when he was using and when I had no support) despite the fact that I attended Al Anon on Monday, support group on Wednesday, and another Al Anon on Thursday. I pray, exercise, and read the Al Anon material every day, but I feel I'm trying.... but I can't seem to shake these sad feelings. I understand that sometimes you just have a bad day but mine have been hanging around for a few days now. I know I would be much worse off if I didn't have the support but still - I'm disappointed in myself for letting this get a hold of me. Shame on me. I should be more grateful that he's in a good place right now but I find myself working myself into a tizzy because of the changes that are going to take place and what has happened recently. The other day in the mail, I received 5 new criminal charges stemming from an incident that happened before the last court date, that I thought were dropped. Then I received a call the same day from the juvenile detective informing me that he received my son's drug test results showing positive for pot and heroin. Even though these results are about 5 weeks old (I knew what the results were days after the arrest)and my son's lawyer told me not to worry about the charges all those anxious feelings resurfaced. I haven't heard from the detective in months and it just caught me off guard. In addition, my son was being assessed during this time to decide what level of care he should receive. The counselor then turns to me and asks what I think he needs! If it were up to me...inpatient care so that I (selfishly) wouldn't have to worry about him. My son and husband, on the other hand, think differently. Perhaps he will do okay because he has been clean without treatment. Regardless, I understand no matter how he is doing, I need to find my serenity. Just having a bad day...This Too Shall Pass. Question: What do you do to shake the blues? Ride it through or find another way to combat them?