Not at all! sharing is good. I had a day pretty much like your sat night yesterday. I just wanted some company....didn't want to be with 'me' again...couldn't even think of what i wanted to do for myself...just felt, alone, a bit scared that i might get 'stuck' like this...and totally sick of coming back to this place again and again. Sometimes I get sick of therapy....and I want a quick fix to my problems...not endless discussion of my childhood and how I have to 'feel' it because thats my block...i never felt what was happening back then....
I know i am now doing what you said you had enough of in your meetings...so i'll tell you a few things that helped me when i was full of fighting spirit a few weeks ago
1. I joined a female supper club-not a posh affair, just women getting together to eat in a pub/restaurant. Nearly all were single, mixed ages and all looking for other women to do stuff with, cinema,sports etc..
2. I joined a local walking group. Again most people were single and all very friendly and have social stuff too
3. I stopped drinking a glass or 2 of wine each night....i'm not an alcoholic but when i feel sorry for myself I have a few and it leaves me feeling low, tired and sluggish the next day
4. I phone someone, and have a normal conversation with them, I find out what they've been doing and try and let some of their energy energize me in a positive way.
This might not help you but its how I try to sort myself out. Take care and big hugs x

i know that saturday night feeling well...in fact i had it last night....i have it well almost every night .
the way i have coped for about 2 years now is to go to bed at about 8 pm and sleep it through .unfortunately this has led to a really unhealthy sleeping pattern where i go to bed at around 8pm and get up round 3 to4 am...that is why i post early in the morning. i tried to stay up later last night and managed to stay up till round 9.30 woke up round 5am which is progress.
but as far as that lonley feeling goes i know it well
congratulations on joining the groups you have.i think that is a thing i should do.
lis

It really works (joining clubs) you build up a routine and familiar people to see who might eventually become friends.

Thank you for the suggestions. Silly me, I have to figure out where these groups exist, in order to join. I don't know why that seems so difficult to figure out. First and foremost, I gotta start with what kind of groups I'm interested in, that I can afford (I would love to do ceramics again, but being unemployed has financial constraints). Then I can agonize about where the heck they exist in my area, if at all...

ink... boy are we in a conundrum... I can't seem to get out of bed much before noon and I can't seem to fall asleep much before 4 a.m. Seriously... we'd meet like ships passing in the night. LOL. I keep telling myself to get to bed a half hour earlier each night, set the alarm a half hour earlier in the a.m. Fat lotta good that's doing me... SIGH.

It's 1:40 a.m. and I'm still going strong. Even with a book in hand, I doubt I'll be getting any shut-eye prior to 3:30a.m. I love the nights -- so absolutely quiet. Maybe I've got a bit of ADD or something, but noise really grates on my nerves. All the traffic and sounds of the day jar me. It's the night when I find my body and mind relaxing and I can think more clearly . . . I love the sound of silence sometimes. Except on Saturday Nights. When it becomes deafening . . .

Thanks Again.

thanks for your response....i am working on changing my sleeping pattern by staying in bed for half an hour longer every night and going to bed half an hour later ...last night i made it to 9 pm..so congratulations to me...got up at round 5.30 am...thats getting better. as far as the traffic graiting on your nerves and the possibility of add...i have adult adhd and yes it makes one very sensitive to noise..i too love the sound of silence especially in the early morning.
maybe you could have some investigation into the fact that maybe you have some add...its really a releif to have that helped.
lis