I have been dating this man for 2.5 years. He is addicted to crack cocaine, he is not a daily user but a binger. He can stay clean for months and then just hits a depression and disappears. My fear is when he is hear and I am standing by his side i feel trapped and when he is gone I feel scared to death for him. Worried al the time it consumes my mind and I can't accomplish anything. I sitand wait for him to call and wait and wait, eventually he does call but htis time I fear he won't as he ripped me off for the first time, he has never stolen from me and has always taken his own money to blow. I fear for his safety and that he is going to end up dead. It seems i wait for the call just to know he is ok and when he calls I feel so muchbetter but it is only temporary and then Im scared and consumed by it again. He is suicidal when he gets way down and that scares me too. His family is no loner comunicating with him as theyhave all had to let him go which really bothers him and sends him into a depression. I fear that if he feels he has now lost me too that he may follow through with his thoughts. I guess in the end I have spent all this time trying to help him and in the end there is noone ther to help me and ease my mind of this madness. Its so easy fro him to just walk away while i sit here and worry I love him and want to help him. ???
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