I'm doing OK. A couple of busy weeks in this heat takes a lot out of me. Did a lot of work on accepting that the I can do that gal now must accept that I can't. Yep, grief work was needed. Hugs.

Its been hot here too. Age does make
Many of us slow down. I hate to go
Shopping out of town now. I use to love
It as a day away. Now i need a real good
incentive just to Go, Hugs

I have good and bad days anxiety flares up and the usual living within family dysfunction, cant make other people see the light trying to move past that , accept , grow and work on my own mental heath .

I am so glad my anxiety is better Also
Very Glad i do not live with or near my
family. I will add those two things onto
my todays gratitude list.

There are better days ahead for you
Salina. Recovery Is a long journey with
many bumps in the Road, HUGS

Hello and thanks for including me. I am really struggling - it’s such a long story - a lifelong story - he was my High a school seeetheart. We came back together after almost 40 years. It’s been almost 8 straight years of hell. I could be in many of these groups - suffice it to say it you look up codependent there’s a small color photo of me...he made many promises that there would be no pot, no beer, no lies, and lots of love. None of that had happened. It’s been sheer misery. Bought a house, sold it. Bought another one, sold it. I bough one on my own. He’s moved out twice in a year. I just came from his rental house after screaming at him for an hour and a half about his drinking and women (cheated off and on the last 3 years), only took a week this time after he moved in March. I am a SICK person. My self esteem is shot, I cry every single day, I beg him to “pick me”...I could go on and on until the admin shut me down

Alanon/CODA has many like stories. You
are Not alone thats for sure. I think many
Of us On here would have some stories.

Most of us come from the same stuff.
Dysfunction and/or abusive homes that
Created codependent children. Some
Children had It worse than others.

Can you go into therapy for some help And
guidance or go to a 12 step meeting.

I know i sound like a preacher many Times
and people on here are probably very Tired
of me.

It took me in two years in alanon to stop being
a doormat and he Was dry. Time takes time and
there are No easy, quick or simple answers to
what Ails us. HUGS

Awe thanks for the comment and support. I feel the love. I am considering calling my old counselor and doing a few phone visits. I know what he will say so it’s tough to pay the freight when I know exactly what to do - stay away from him, realize my worth, wake up and know I can’t “save” anyone...just for starters. I question my own sanity and wonder why I didn’t want to settle for a daily 12 pack drinker and pot head. Then I snap back and say but that’s not the life I wanted to live. Don’t I have that right just as he has the right to be a drunk? I don’t judge anyone who chooses to stay with someone who is using but I don’t want to build a life like that. I really worry that I’m about to snap some days. I start bawling over him at the drop of a hat. I am broken. I worry I’ll never find joy or purpose again.

Recovery is not easy. Call your old Therapist.
I love mine i am going tomorrow As a matter
of fact. I only go now when Needed or for a
checkin.

We get just as sick In a different way When
in a codependent and/or dysfunctional
Relationship.

Read on here there are lots of articles, books,
Youtube videos and other resourses. Detaching
from our addiction And healing our own stuff is
Not easy.

There is hope ahead when you are ready, it will
not be painless. HUGS

Hey Mdebluz, you are in the right place here. Yes, we become addicted to them. Head and heart do not match well for us. We want the white knight to reappear and stay, but the real them just comes right back. You will work your recovery journey, become healthy, and then attract a healthy person. Just as with all addictions, we cannot return to our addiction, no matter how much we crave to. Healing and comforting hugs.

Hanging in there... today has been a hard day. Lots on my mind

Deja, Let yourself grieve and process all
your Uncomfortable feelings and emotions.
They are hard to sit in, i do know.

This journey is not easy. I feel like i am
Finally getting to the other side. Its been
such a long process to get there. Baby
steps and inner work mostly.

I still struggle daily and keep pushing
Toward the light, HUGS