Cocaine Addiction & Recovery Support Group

Cocaine addiction is the excessive intake of cocaine, and can result in physiological damage, lethargy, depression, or a potentially fatal overdose. Though the immediate craving to do more cocaine is strong and very common, this feeling usually subsides in most users within an hour. This craving can, as it has in many users, develop rather quickly into an intense...

387 Members

1,664 Posts

0 Online

charmingdisaster 07/06/2010

I feel like I am falling backwards very quickly. I had a decent weekend but it was practically ruined for me emotionally. My best friend who is a guy that claims to care about me decided to flip out on me for there being a pic on facebook of me and another guy. We never dated and I know he likes me that way but we already talked it over and know it would not work. What I do not get is that he feels that I am a bad friend and will not talk to me. I am so upset that I dont think any of this makes sense. I have not used but i am so close to it because literally my only sober friend is abandoning me over something so foolish. I could use or i can vent on here, i am not feeling strong at all. I feel like just making all the thoughts stop by using but I know i cant. I have called my sponsor but i fall apart once i hang up the phone.

firespinner 07/07/2010

sorry you have fallen out i hope you can sort it out with your friend. my personal experience is that i can rely too heavily on a friendship with one person but when things happen in life with this person or between us then it can really make things shit!. So now i think i can rely to heavily on one person, i can have a great friendship for sure but i need a network of support from more than one. because things happen!

charmingdisaster 07/07/2010

thank you. I seem to have the same problem. I rely far too much on one person so when they let me down, it is shattering to me.

deleted_user 07/07/2010

I will jump right in here.... I am not an addict, but have been in the other side as the person who he was falling each time we had an issue. He did create a better support group, with not only a sponsor, but a few other people of same gender to talk to when he got into a funk. Seemed to be helping a lot.
We are no longer together, and he is still staying strong from 26 years of crack, cocaine, pills and alcohol addiction.
Stay strong, and rely on your people, if you only have your sponsor, call again, and ask what else you can do.
Something else he used to say that helped a lot, was exercising. He said all his anger, lack of control, and crazy thoughts would be gone by the time he was done.
Hugs to you, and stay focused on your recovery.

charmingdisaster 07/07/2010

Thank you. I have been doing all I can to keep focused on my recovery. It always hurts to find out someone that you thought was your friend turns on you. I called my sponsor and we talked a long time.

JennyMe 07/25/2010

that damned drug is tricky.. it will try to mess you up with any excuse to use.

when the cravings come try to focus on the negative. instead of romancing it.

how it makes you sick.. the money.. your health... your future.. the shame.. focus on what it really brings into your life. nothing good will come from you using.

sending you support

deleted_user 07/25/2010

What can I add?
His expectations are not your issue.You really do have concentrate on yourself,your feelings and your recovery.You stated you knew it wouldn't work between you,and that basically you opted to remain friends.He is holding on to hopes otherwise and that is his jealousy .
We do tend to base our feelings about ourselves on how we think others feel about us.All I can say is that those misconceptions will pass.Try not to concentrate on his feelings,they are his,not yours.
Light a candle,turn out the lights and talk to whatever you believe in.You will feel better in the morning.You may even find a way of satisfying both parties without punishing yourself for being human.
Strength and love.
Good to see you Jennyme!

Join the Conversation