Tabby I dont mind if you are a bit snippy as everyone gets that way but I would like some of the questions answered, it seems like we ask questions and you just ignore the ones you dont want to answer and the support goes both ways. That means if you want us to support you and take time to reply then please take the time to answer the questions I have not seen one that I thought was asking anything to personal I mean telling us you want to kill yourself is personal of the highest degree anyways so I am sure the questions are not over the line.

Amen Brokenyolk! You read my mind.

There are always two sides (if not more) to every story in every persons' life. The truth usually lies somewhere in between.

No the questions are not over the line I just feel like nobody understands what I have been through. I did this same thing two years ago when My best friend got raped I ended up in the mental hospital I kept saying to myself its my fault that she got hurt well today has been two years since that horrible day. I am still not over it thats why i said That UI would be better off dead so I would not have to face this day. because it brings back so many horrible memories

you realize by your own admittance that your guilt in not rational. so, the argument of being better off dead for something you cannot or could not control should pretty much be off the table.

i'd wager it doesn't make your friend feel much better about it, so if i were in your shoes, i'd knock it off.

dead is permanent, your grief isn't.

Pay attention to reply #19! Read it a few times if you need to.

glad for the reinforcement that i make sense some of the time, cherry.

thanks.

Seems like it might just be Groundhog day revisited!