NO one is better off dead...we all have bad days....But w2e must get through them together..we are here for each other...I am a mother and our loved ones just don't understand..they have never felt our pain.....but I can assure you your mother loves you she just doesn't know how to help...If you can't see Holly call her..I hope this helps...just know we are here for you too....

I would just like to say t*at I *ope you can find a bi**er support system. Do you *ave a doctor and/or a t*erapist? Please know you are loved by your DS family, includin* me.

Dead is not the way to go. I just found out today that a young girl I know who is going to deliver a baby that basically won't live. Pain comes and goes.

Someone else usually has it worse than we do. My heart breaks for that poor young girl having to deliver and lose a baby.

Thanks everybody for your kindness I just wish that I could wake up and my pain be gone but that will never happen My friend has always been there for me and when I need her the most my mom has to go and ruiin our friendship I can't get though this pain without her. She knows just what to say to make me laugh

Tabby are you still at the hospital? You need to tell the nurse how you feel. They have people there who can listen and help you.

Tabby, you've got too many people who care about you. Those of us on this board have come to know you and care about what happens to you.

Get the help that others have recommended. Tigg had a good idea. Also, as Lynn said, you can call your friend, or email or something.

Know that we care, and we're here for you.
Blessings, Elizabeth

I know things may feel very hopeless at times especially when we are in great pain. But ending your live isn't going to make it better. I know you think your mother is ruining your friendship. Is it because you live at home still at 22 was it. If so it must be hard not have your friend over at your age because your mother doesn't like her. I suppose there has to be a reason yet I can understand your anger towards your mother. You are so young yet and being alone is not fun and if your best friend is not allowed over for some reason and she is actually trying to support you, I think your mom is being very immature to me. However I don't have the full story. I don't why it is such a big deal that she's there. Was there some sort of legal reason or is it just peatty. wish I had more understand why your mom control you so much. it is possible to get disability and have home health aide if you can get a medicad waiver or can't live without help. Then it is your decsion about what you do and want are not up to your MOm.

this is teenage mind trip, you're well smarter than this trap, we understand you need sympathy, but please don't manipulate anyone with suicide talk. you could damage people you weren't even aware of with this flippant talk about a permanent solution to a temporary problem that you haven't even faced the core of yet. you've been fooled into thinking that you have less rights than other people. i mean that intensely. YOU'VE BEEN ROOKED. quit falling for it and try to grow above the limits that have been imposed and that you, feeling a false sense of security from limitation have embraced like a coffin nail.

CUT IT OUT. you aren't twelve and i don't want to hear another word about you offing yourself until you TRY to get your affairs in order in the same manner anyone in your situation would. you're far from the end of some rope you've built. ACT, accomplish something in the way of your healthcare and if 3 years down the road in your treatment you still want to walk out on the public suicide pier, then more power to ya.

just don't rip my heart like it's yesterday's paper in the gutter, when you've not made enough changes to even examine a new POV.

i know i'm being harsh, but you need a wake up call. you're talking to a group of people who have lost so much more than their ability to live without constant pain. my god, the things we've sacrificed. you're new, you're depressed, you're dying for attention because of what your family has put you through.

this isn't the perfect, penultimate place to heal. you need therapy, you need physical medical help, you need things that our sympathy cannot provide you.

but, i swear, the next person who flings suicide up like a flag to get attention and praise, is going to wish they had thought it over first. suicide is not romantic, nor will it solve your problems and it most likely wont make you famous of loved by anyone who didn't already care for you. it's an easy card to pull, but it makes you look like a totally ineffectual tool.

STOP IT.

get help and get a hobby. no more woe is me, please, if it's going to be a bait for, "oh no!!! don't do it!!" instant ego gratification. frankly, you're pissing me off.

sorry,
jen

GET HELP

Sounds like you have been reading my mail! Just did four horrible daze of withdrawals after my Ex-Pharmacy screwed up! Each Sun's rising is a promise that things can change, either in our perspectives or physicality. I wish for you comfort and peace, if not, acceptance of the unwanted burden placed upon you. No one has the right to judge another's pain or it's affects on our souls, peace to yours.

Peace, always Peace! MM

I wanted to c*eck in wit* you. Do you feel any better? Maybe you are asleep. Please let us know *ow you are tomorrow.

Why will your not let you be friends with Holly, and no a friend can help you get through the pain but not take it away. I dont mean to hurt your feelings but I can sort of see why you have a guardian as talking about suicide like it is just another day is not something that a person with a sound mind does.

A stomach ache is not something that would be so bad for suicide talk would began, maybe someone going through terminal cancer and in some serious pain will consider but not to make their mom happy but to end their suffering.

I think your mom and I have said some harsh words about her may have some merit to some things she does.

Please dont say that, I find it very disturbing and scary. Please get help for it.

I am doing a little better this morning today is going to be a hard day for me So If I am snappy to anyone I am so sorry

I've been reading your posts for awhile now and did not respond because I, too, like brokenyolk, can't help but wonder if you are just taking advantage of this site by pulling on the heart strings of these very kind and loving people. We are, for the most part, desperate here to hang on to some kind of life with human bonds. We, for the most part, have lost everything due to our medical conditions and yet no one except you seems to make posts that threaten our lives and catch all that read. I am no expert, but I have been where you are in some respects and I know that when you really want to end your life you don't go telling everyone about it. You just do it. And as for doing it, 530,000 men try to commit suicide every year and only 30,000 succeed. That's 500,000 a year who have to continue to live on with moredisability and pain. It is not the answer. Try to take your mind off of it and make the best of the moment you have at hand. It will pass. Hope today is more up than down for you.

No I am not trying to pull on the heart strings of these people. I am looking for support because my family does not understand what I am going though and what I have been though. I hope today is a better day. for me My aunt keeps telling me that everything happens for a reason I just wonder if my suffering if there is a reason behind it.