Chronic Pain Support Group
Physicians and professionalsdefine pain as chronic if it lasts longer than three to six months and is persistent. It's distinct from acute pain that is a direct result of injury or trauma. This support group is dedicated to those suffering from chronic pain. Discuss treatments that have worked for you, find advice for your specific experience, and find support. You're not...
I try to keep my head up, I try to always find the positive and above all I try to keep a smile on my face for my children, this last one is the hardest for me. Through all the trying to stay positive There are always the bad days, where all i want to do is sit and cry, the pain gets worse with every passing day, some days its better, some its worse, but it's always there.
I have come to an uneasy truce with the fact that I will be in pain for the rest of my life, this as i have been told repeatedly is the reality of things. so i have no choice but to accept it. But I think what gets me down the most is when I think of everything that my conditions have taken from me.
First I lost my ability to work, this was a huge blow since I prided myself on my strong work ethic, now I can not even fold laundry without 2 hr breaks between baskets. Also I have lost my ability to exercise like I used to, I used to run and ride my bike miles upon miles, just soaking in the landscape, basking in all of natures glory, now i sit and stare out the window as the world passes me by.
I could go on for days with this, i feel I have lost so much. But to me the biggest tragedy is my art, I spent most of my life as an artist, I could draw a symphony of colors, I could turn paper and pencil into things of such beauty they would reduce one to tears. Now if I hold a pencil for more than a minute or two tears stream down my face from pain. How is this right? how did god give me the gifts I have, only to take them away? I am haunted by ideas that will now be forever stuck in my mind, never to escape onto the world, i feel as if i have lost a part of myself...
Sorry for the pity party, but i'm hoping telling someone about it can give me a little closure....
so my question is, " what have you lost?".....
I have come to an uneasy truce with the fact that I will be in pain for the rest of my life, this as i have been told repeatedly is the reality of things. so i have no choice but to accept it. But I think what gets me down the most is when I think of everything that my conditions have taken from me.
First I lost my ability to work, this was a huge blow since I prided myself on my strong work ethic, now I can not even fold laundry without 2 hr breaks between baskets. Also I have lost my ability to exercise like I used to, I used to run and ride my bike miles upon miles, just soaking in the landscape, basking in all of natures glory, now i sit and stare out the window as the world passes me by.
I could go on for days with this, i feel I have lost so much. But to me the biggest tragedy is my art, I spent most of my life as an artist, I could draw a symphony of colors, I could turn paper and pencil into things of such beauty they would reduce one to tears. Now if I hold a pencil for more than a minute or two tears stream down my face from pain. How is this right? how did god give me the gifts I have, only to take them away? I am haunted by ideas that will now be forever stuck in my mind, never to escape onto the world, i feel as if i have lost a part of myself...
Sorry for the pity party, but i'm hoping telling someone about it can give me a little closure....
so my question is, " what have you lost?".....
There are many negatives I could draw out...many echo other responses here and I agree, it is like a part of me has died. But, and I know its hard to see the positive, we have all gained things too, to appreciate things in life I would never have thought of if it wasnt for the chronic pain...the 'good' days...even if they are fewer and fewer, I enjoy these times when they do roll around, the support I have recieved from those close to me make me realise how much others care, the strength I never thought I would have had, but I draw out again and again to get through the bad times...the list goes on and Im sure its the same for most of you too.
Im scared for the future too as you have said...but even if we were able bodied, who knows, tomorrow we could get hit by a bus. Its possible, but not definite, and thats the way I try to look at chronic pain. It could, and is likely to be here to stay and get worse, but you never know, things may change, and no point losing sleep over it til its time.
I hope you are feeling better soon, even if not in pain terms, in yourself. We are all here to listen any time, and it makes me so sad to see so many people on here losing hope. I really do understand how hard it is, and there are days I see no light, but the light I see at the moment I want to share with everyone.
Take care of yourself,hugs xx
I haven't posted alot lately, but I read everyday, and I find comfort, a few tears and alot of laughs here. I hope you find those as well.
Hugs,
Theresa
Welcome, I have had CP for 25 years now and I can tell you it is just like the stages of life, it takes constant adjustment and reflection.
Having a support network like the CP group is so wonderful. It has made a huge difference in my life. So I am so glad you are here.
Yes, CP takes, pain is a thief, but the experience gives us insight that
normals never experience. You have already mentioned your new found understanding towards people in CP. For me, I used to be a type A personality and quite impatient. Now, due to a litte brain damage and CP I have learned to take life slower and live in the moment. There are many things are pain can teach us if we listen. Now I am not at all saying that pain is a good thing, I would like mine to end, but I have learned something from it.
I am glad that you are here! Hugs, Cathy