From reading all of your posts, is obvious that you are under medicated, have you talked to your Doc about this? If you have and he/she is not listeting, maybe is time for a different Doctor.

Remember, the Doctor works for you, and he/she should be able to listen and take care of your pain, if that is not happening, is time to find a new Doc.

Soft healing hugs,
Tipper

She is only in the clinic 2 days a week so it's impossible to see her other than the 4 week appts. we schedule in advance. Every time she tries me on a different dosage or new drug, I have to suffer for a month before it's changed.

I know I'm under medicated, but I also can't be impaired for work. My therapist told me that if I'm still in this much pain, a higher dose isn't going to impair me.

I don't know how I'm going to work anymore today, but I have to. I'm struggling so much to keep going that there is no joy in my life.

I am so sorry Cherry to hear how tough you've got it right now.
I can't believe how tough you ARE that you are still working!
I hope you can find a workeable solution to your pain and need to function at work very soon. Sending blessings your way, Kristi :)

If possible (it often is not), try to schedule the progressive activity.

I don't feel very tough, but I managed to do what I had to today. I jumped through all the hoops to apply for disability last year. My doctor thought it was time, but I was denied...of course. They sid that I could do something else for work. What? I can't sit or stand for extended periods of time. I'm medicated and I never know if I'm going to have to reschedule a day at the last minute.

This is what I'm trained to do...and I'm pretty darned good at it. It's just not fun with the amount of pain I have, now.

So...what am I supposed to do instead???