You poor poor girl, thats a horrendous story, it must have been so hard to tell us, well we all love you here and your safe with us sweetheart, god bless you, gentle hugs, susie x

FIRST, Good for you sharing with us. I know it is really hard to trust people when you have been abused. If anyone here is mean, put them on ignore. If they don't belive you, put them on ignore. If .... well you get the point.

Most likely you have scar tissue that is pressing on organs.
I know from experience that doctors can not see everything with external exams.

Then there is the emotional damage that seem to stay in those spots until you can heal the hurt.

Good first step.
Sunny

Tabby,

I am very sorry that you were subjected to that abuse hun. NOONE on this planet should have to suffer that way and unfortunately many people have been abused in one form or another. It is horrendous that these monsters did this to you. Please know that they will have to answer for what they did one day. Know that this is your safe haven, we love you just as you are, and I admire your strength and goals. HUGE hugs to you and thank you for sharing as I know how hard it must be for you to share this.....

Thank you all for your kind words I have a hard time trusting people due to the abuse I am glad that I shared with you all that way to all can get to know me better and know why I suffer from chronic pain. There are days when I hurt and I just want to find the people that did this to me and Make them hurt like I do. They were evil people who were suppose to take care of me. and the other kids at the foster home. but Instead of loving us they hurt us I just wish that the doctors could take my pain away but they cant

Taby,
It was very brave of you to tell us your story and I'm so sorry you went through all this hell growing up. I was physically abused as a child but thankfully, never sexually abused which is a whole other realm of abuse.

I understand your feeling of wanting to find the people who did this to you and do the same to them I remember standing at my father's deathbed just screaming at him for what he did to me. He made it nearly impossible for me to ever trust a man and the first relationship I had was with an abusive man, but I had the strength to say that I wouldn't put up with it and left But I was always conscious of the other men I dated for signs of an abusive nature. Thank God I found Tim who has never laid a hand on me. If he did, I would have left.

You need your psychiatric therapy as much as pain mgt for your situation. It will help you untangle the physical from the psychological.

Best of luck, Tabby, and you're in my prayers.
Sandy

I'm so sorry you had to live thru that and still hurt now. I'm glad you found this site and can trust everyone here enough to tell your story.

Take care.

(((hugs)))

Tabby, good for you for having the strength to tell your story about why you have chronic pain. As far has getting revenge on the ones that hurt you, you'd probably end up hurting more from that than the evil ones who hurt you....those people are our of your life and you seem to be in a safe living situation, so don't waste any of your energy thinking about that you'd do to them...use that energy to go forward instead. Use that energy to help you do the things that you've talked about lately that will help you become a better person and gain a better standing in life.

My father molested me until I was 13 years old, my mother turned her back and ignored him and liked to beat on me with belts for the smallest mistake. When my father finally moved out when I was 13, my mom moved 1 skanky boyfriend after another in our house....I stayed away from home as much as possible and just buried myself in my studies. I finished High School a year early and started college as soon as I could, I wanted to get a career so I could get as far away from Houston, TX as possible.

Your on the right track, going to school, your opening up all kinds of doors to making your life better, it also gives you something to focus on besides the past or the current pain. You hang in there Tabby.

Kat

my dearest tabby,
there really are no words strong enough to express the depth of my anger toward those who abused you. nor
are there words that can fully do justice to how incredibly brave and strong you are. you are an amazing person, and i am so glad that you feel safe enough here to share this with us. it takes a great deal of courage to do that, and you should be proud of yourself/i am proud of you, for speaking out.

believe me, i want to find the people who did this to you and make them pay too. people like them are the reason i hope there is an afterlife, because that means that hell exists and they will be there for eternity.

i wish more than anything that i could take your pain and suffering (physical, mental, emotional, spiritual) away, so that you could have the wonderful, peaceful life you deserve, one in which every day is filled only with joy and love. i know that by taking the brave steps you are taking in seeking treatment and support and working toward your goals you are getting (or will get) closer and closer to having the happiness you deserve. you are incredibly courageous and one of the strongest people i have ever met. i admire you so much- your perserverence in the face of so many obstacles and the natural beauty of your spirit inspire me.

i'm sorry you had to go through that, and i'm also glad that you felt comfortable enough sharing that information. sometimes just telling someone is the first step towards getting a little better. it probably won't make your physical pain any better, but it might help you emotionally to talk about it. i'm another person that's suffered abuse in my past, though like sandy, not sexual abuse, just physical and emotional. it's not the reason for my chronic pain, but it's caused some lasting psychological scars, so i understand your desire for revenge - i sometimes think that way. but like kat said, it's probably best to channel that energy into more positive pursuits. you're doing well, going to school, trying to better your life. these people don't deserve any more of your attention.

tabby, i'm so sorry that you went through all and i applaud your bravery for sharing. i pray for your healing in every way. there is nothing worse than damaging an innocent child.
with you through your journey.
hugs and love!

How brave you are for sharing, but like many have said it is such an important step. You are not alone there are many who suffer chronic pain because of abuse. I hope you can find a therapist who can help you with this. I have used therapists many times in my life and it has really helped me deal with my pain. Tabby thank you for trusting, that is so important.

Tabby so sorry you went through that. I hope now you are going to work on healing your inner core. This is something you can do. Like others have said revenge sounds good, but it just hurts you more. Why give them the satisfaction?
Like you and others I was abused and I've been determined to show them how strong I am in spite of them! It irks their butts!
Many hugs!!!

Tabby, I'm truly sorry for what you had to endure. Coming from similar circumstances I understand the challenges you face day to day, night after night. Living in pain is bad enough, yet we both share those memories of why we are in pain, those endless torments that try to tater our very souls. Yet as I read so many of your post I know that they haven't stolen your beautiful Heart. That they can never take away, you are in my Heart, my Sister Survivor, Blaine

Thanks everyone for the love and support. I have so many health issues due to the abuse I have scars on my body because of it when I was 6 years old I had to wear a brace on my leg because my leg was damaged from they would kick me and hit me on my legs with a belt to this day I have pain in my legs stomach and back because of what those people did to me I wish that I could find them and beat them with belts and other items and see how like it its no one having chronic pain and that's why I have its thier fault not mine. none of my doctors seem to understand why I hurt I cant seem o find the strength to tell them why I want so badly to tell them why I hurt should I tell them the next time I go o the Docor.