im up..let me make my coffee then ill post my horrid time at e r!!!!!!!!!!

here

You usually up this early or bad night, t.

Hell, I'm so tired I'm answering my own post. Hope you're sleeping, Ee

off and on fits n starts uuuuuhhhh.....might giveit another go here.
been up with the heat and ice a bit yaknow.
how are you?......said the man with the stupid questions

anyone still up?????im having a tuff time

I'm up and new here, kinda...I used to belong to Daily Strength but a few years back I convinced myself that my using a support website I was somehow succumbing to my chronic pelvic pain syndrome and I wasn't going to be so weak that I couldn't make it thru my day without some online support group..I was fooling only myself and I've come to realize that I left behind some good people that also happen to be able to understand and appreciate what it's like to live with chronic pain. I'm one of those who always tells everyone I'm fine even if I'm struggling to get thru the day. I always tell myself someone has it worse than me, never allow myself to drop tears over my life. The truth is it's a load of crap and I'm going to take the time to enjoy this website even if I don't feel like I deserve to do something special for myself. On Chrsitsmas night I had a total meltdown and my poor husband had to listen to me cry my heart out for hours about how powerless I feel because of pain. I went on and on about how everything that we as people use to measure our sense of dignity and self worth has been stripped from me by pain! I cried that I can no longer work as a nurse and care for others which always made me feel so good inside, that I wasn't even close to being the mom my 12 yr. old daughter needs, that I can barely get household chores done occassionally, that not only can I not reward my supportive husband with a nice hot dinner, but I can't make up for no hot dinner with some hot, late night sex! I tried to make him understand the guilt that bears down on you every moment you're awake..how you feel so useless and like such a burden. Then I went on to feel guilty that of all nights I broke down on Christmas and that was the last thing my husband needed to be dealing with. It's a good thing I'm blessed with a great man on my side. Anyways, thought I'd say hi...

Well,welcome back bramsay. Since you already know the routine, I'd give a shout out on the board''cause I think this thread is passing with the night.

Ive been suffering alot of Insomnia over the last 6 months, last night I got about 3 hrs sleep and tonight doesnt seem to be shaping up to well either, I have to go to physio, occupational therapy, and my social work session tomorrow from 10am-12pm, I hope Im not knackered.

I'm on my first cup of coffee but I'm here! I'll get back to you about up or down, lol (better today than yesterday). Good morning though.

bramsey, I could have written your story, I'm an RN who had to stop working in '06.