After having a wonderful day with my son (and having not slept Saturday night) I went to bed around 6pm last night. I was all ready to fall asleep considering that I hadn't slept the night before, but I couldn't sleep.

I don't usually have that much trouble FALLING asleep- I used to but lately it's been staying that way. But I could NOT fall asleep. I was going on 3 hours sleep in almost 48 hours. After many hours I dosed off, but woke at 1am with the scariest heart pumping, shaking, awful feeling.

I'd had a great day, so I was pretty shocked to wake up with acid reflux and just an awful sense of self. I have never been "depressed" or shown signs of anything like that, but I sure was out of it in a way that is hard to describe. I was having muscle spasms but those are normal to me after 15 years. The pounding heart scared me, and I didn't know what to do.

I took a valium for the muscle spasms and things seemed to calm down with that, but really, what if I hadn't had valium for the spasms? Something was wrong last night- not so wrong I needed a doctor I don't THINK, but I felt SO odd. I wondered if I was having a heart attack, but didn't have the symptoms. Then I wondered if this was a new RSD symptom, but after 15 years, a NEW symptom?

Anyway, it was quite scary and I don't like that feeling. Maybe I was dreaming something and it upset me? But I almost always remember dreams. It was a panic attack in a sense, but it happened in my sleep and woke me. Has anyone had anything like that before?

So again I had an interrupted night of sleep and it took me 90 minutes to calm down and fall asleep. I was SO tired that I let my son play in his room this morning before getting up and he was SO good. When I went in he was sitting on his bed reading a book. His smile when he sees me in the morning is so contagious!