Hi Tabby. I am sorry you are in pain. I hope you have some meds to ease it. I'll will keep you in my prayers.

It is most likely the abuse. I imagine you have scar tissue.

Do you meditate? Many times breathing deeply will allow more O2 to arrvie at the deep tissues and help them heal better.

I could not walk when docs finally admitted that I was actually sick with something. I got much better with the GF diet. But still in much pain.
I started meditation and singing lessons to increase the O2. That has healed a lot.

You can pick up a CD to guide meditation. There is no wrong way to do it.

Tabby,

Are you still seeing a therapist? It sounds like you really need someone to talk to about your past and about the pain that you have now. I hope that you'll consider getting back in with a Pdoc or therapist soon.

Kat

No I am not seeing a therapist The last time I went to a therapist. They put me on Meds, and they also put me in a mental hospital Not doing that again I am going to talk to my docor. and tell them That They need to figure out whats causing my pain

Tabby,

I am sorry you are in pain and in particular you didn't have the right therapist. Not all therapist are created equal just like physcians. The good, the bad and the ugly are in very profession.

Sunny was right about meditation. I cannot take anything that directly impacts my pain. It is the feeling of glass exiting from my neck to my knees so I have learned meditation, deep breathing and visualization. The only way I can get through the day.

I hope you PCP will help you get through this pain.

Hugs,
Joanne

I agree with everyone about meditation and visualization/self hypnosis. Just like meds, all of these are important coping tools. As to doctors, both shrinks and GP, if you have one you dislike, ask around. Go on line, Craig's list, whatever, and someone, somewhere will recommend a good, compassionate doctor that listens to you and has your well-being at heart. It may take a little while, but if you can find that gem of a doctor we all look for, it's worth it.

Good Luck!

Can anyone suggest a meditation CD that doesn't involve visualization?

Seems my imagination is only capable of creating wierd symptoms that mimic seratonin storm, withdrawal or a chemical imbalance that aren't worth looking into.

I have a slew of wonderful relaxation tracks, most though are the guided ones, like imagine being in a lush, peaceful forest/meadow and similar things. .I end up frustrated because I can't "visualize" the peaceful scene:(:(

The ones I have without the talking are soothing to a point but don't quite get me relaxed enough to ease the pain. I do the breathing ones that help for a while but before too long, I'm back where I was:(:(

I play those all night via my Kindle to help me get some measure of "restful" sleep b4 the pain nails me.

I have several programs to convert videos to mp3's and such but, as I said, I just can't do the visualization.

Thank you for any suggestions.

Hope everyone will have a "comfy" day.....

@ Tabby- So sorry that you had that experience with seeing a therapist. I understand why you're hesitant to go back, but talking things out with a professional could really help. I'm not sure what "type" of therapist you saw, but there are many different options: psychologist, MSW, LPC, religious counseling, even facilitated group therapy.

@ Noodle: I really like one particular lady (Jody Whiteley) who does guided meditation on youtube; she has some with visualization and some without. Let me find a few that don't include any, and I'll send them to you in a message.

tabby - you probably saw a psychiatrist, if they put you on meds. if you see a regular therapist (psychologist), they are not licensed to prescribe meds, just to talk. therapy could be helpful both for talking about your past abuse, and to deal with the pain - many therapists could help you with guided meditation techniques, like sunny is suggesting. and if you see a therapist and don't like them, then fire them and get a new one - i've seen therapists before and just wanted someone to talk to, and they immediately told me that i should get in to see a psychiatrist and take lots of meds, and i got a new therapist because they weren't listening to me. they can't force you to take meds. they also can't force you into a mental hospital unless you say something that indicates that you want to hurt yourself or someone else.

as for the pain, i definitely think that you should continue to look for physical causes - i'm in no way suggesting your pain is all psychological. keep meeting with your doctor to find out what's causing it. and good luck!

Tabby,

The Therapist you saw last time was a Pdoc a Psychiatrist, that's the only way they could have put you on meds and had you committed and if I remember right, you were pretty messed up mentally back then...you've come a long way. Not all Therapists are cut from the same cloth, it's not always find the one that fits right the first time. You seem to have a lot of problems to work out, without much support to help you work them out...having a Therapist to help you, to talk with you and teach you how to cope and work out your problems might be just the thing you need....if you don't like them, you don't have to go back, but it wouldn't hurt to give it a try.

Take care,

Kat