Hi, Skeeter...

I checked out your profile..
As I do when responding to someone I'm unfamiliar with.

Between.. pain, meds, and Parkinson's..
It's not at all surprising that you're having some anger.
Any one of those things could cause it..
And.. you have the trifecta.

Sometimes.. some side effects go away after you adjust to a medication. Maybe that will ease some of it for you.

I don't recall meeting you here on the CP board before

So.. welcome.
Hugs
jc

hugs is all I can say....hugs to you and hope you feel better soon

Skeeter I am sorry you are having these anger issues but with all you have on your plate it is completely understandable. Chronic pain by itself can cause anger, depression can sometimes lead to anger and lack of family support doesn't help. It is possible that the new med is causing a side effect and if that's the cause it will pass. You said you have had depression for years and have never had this type of anger, yet you were only diagnosed two months ago with Parkinson's. My advice is to give yourself a break. You haven't truly adjusted to your "new and different" life. We all have had to adjust one way or another and it is not easy. Don't be so hard on yourself. We are all here for you.
Hugggss Jasmine

Ihave found how touchy I become when I'm in pain-I think it hits my nervous system in more than one way

I've spent a lot of time on DS today.
Far more than I usually do online.

This was one of the subjects that kinda stuck with me.
Because... I sometimes have a difficult time with anger
( and all of the stages of grief...
As they come and go through my life.

I just wish I had some focus for that anger..
So.. it doesn't come out as just bitterness at the world in general.

Like.. if I'd been in an accident that was someone else's fault that caused me injury...
The focus of my anger could be the other driver, say.

I don't guess that .. in reality..
That would make it one bit better.

Ah, well.. I guess the only thing to do is to let go of the anger/bitterness/frustration...............
As quickly as possible.

It helps.. somehow..
To share here and now that I don't have any feelings that apply only to me. That I'm not unique is somehow comforting.

Hugs

yeah you do have a lot on your plate. and its ok to be angry.. better out than in I say.. so vent away...
re tramadol only one way to find out and that is to go off it .. or speak to doctor. about side affects.
I use tramadol sr also. but I have no side affects.

but as one medication wears off.. I find myself with an hour or more of horrid pain - nobody can speak to me, I am just so GRUMPY - its so not like me. but pain can do that to me. I don't suffer from depression. I have a son who does. so its an awful illness on its own. yours is prob a result of PD and CP. is it ?

so give yourself a break.. do something nice for yourself. what do you like to do ? read ? movie ? sleep ? rest on bed ? music ?
computer ?

the stages of grief are like a circle. and anger is a huge part of it.
you probably feel you have lost a lot of your old life.
so you hopefully will have moved thru the stage of anger, but its ok.
you may come back to anger again. its when we get stuck in one place. we may needs some professional help.
hopefully .. we move on to accept and adapt .. but we will prob go back thru the cycle of grief again..
being ill is not fair.. it comes with a heavy price.
but also celebrate how amazing you are to have to cope with both.
Sunny ..

The one thing that I have found that helps me a little when I'm in the angry at the world mood is to remind myself that anger is generally fear and sadness turned inside out. I guess when you think about it the fear is of the unknown on where this new form of life will take me and the struggles that go with it & the sadness represents realizing that life as I once knew it will be no more and sadness over trying to live in this not so easy reality. Hope that helps a little, oh before I forget I too was and still sometimes get angry on the Tramadol it eventually levels out and I hope it does for you soon.

Hugs & God Bless
Lisa

I know what you are going through. With pain you gobthrpugj cycles of depression, anxiety and anger. When you dont see me post im either in the worst pain, worst depression or the worst anger stages. I try to keeep everyone from seeing it. Sometimes the pain is so bad i post it and let it out. It helps and the support i get helps me through. Sometimes i get angry because the pain gets old and i get tired of it. Sometimes the anger is from some of the crap i have went through from the medical world but wont go there, but hopefully yours is only temporary. If not then let it out and it makes you feel better emotionally. Btw i am not giving up on the medical field. Not all drs arwbthe same i have come to realize. I just hope they can keep me alive another day. Hope you get better amd hang in there. Never give up. Angela

Sorry for the spelling have been up all night with the pain and having trouble focusing

This is completely normal for what you are dealing with...the anger. Tramadol has a component that mimics an anti-depressant so, in my most humble of opinions, as your body adjusts, your mood may as well. I know I felt really good mentally when I was on tramadol. Tramadol can be hard to come off (been there, done that) because it both mimics a narcotic pain reliever (while technically is not) AND mimics an anti-depressant so detoxing can feel like both drugs at once. I did successfully detox from tramadol more than once and am no worse for wear. Opana was an absolute nightmare of the worst kind to detox off and I will never ever EVER again go on a medication like that, unless it's at a point where I won't ever be coming off (i.e. old and/or dying).

Anyhow, sorry to sidetrack. Living life with chronic pain often feels lonely...even if we may be surrounded with many people who understand or who love us enough to try. I will say this board helps considerably but, even still, we WILL have feelings of depression, anger, anxiety, etc. This life isn't easy even under the best of circumstances.

I've been going through a patch as well recently so I absolutely understand. Last night, I was such a crying mess that this morning I had to use a GREAT deal of Clinique eye cream to somewhat bring down the puffiness in my eyes from crying. Right now I feel angry at everything and I'm cranky to people that don't deserve it sometimes. I then feel worse after, when my anger dissipates and I realize whoever it was didn't deserve me taking my unrelated frustrations out on them. I am fortunate that those people usually understand, even coworkers. With my contracting officer (who I work with nearly every second of every work day), we have a "safe word," and I simply say the word if I'm having a bad day and he knows it's one of those days where he comes to me in a different way or leaves me alone altogether.

Chronic pain and depression go hand in hand and depression causes anger. It's one big vicious cycle. I've finally, after my fiance has insisted so so so many times, to go see someone for my depression/anger/anxiety. I hope it will help.

Anyway, I know I rambled a lot there but I hope you were able to get something out of it. I'm so sorry you are having a tough time and I hope you stick around to get the support you need here.

(((HUGS)))

Sorry to hear that you're having to cope with chronic pain. Anger is definitely one of the steps towards acceptance when we're grieving the decline of health. Everyone is absolutely right when they say not to get down on yourself about these feelings.

I just wanted to add that you definitely should mention these new feelings of anger to your doctor, because mood changes can sometimes be a symptom of Parkinson's.

Update on Tramadol and pain. The Tramadol works a little but not enough to my satisfaction. I get some relief within taking the medication within about 15 minutes but it doesn't completely relive the pain. I am still feeling very uncomfortable. The meds don't last very long either. I'm allowed to take 3 tables per day but I feel I could use more. I am vey frustrated and cranky from being so uncomfortable. I hate calling my family doctor abut getting in to see him again because he doesn't really know what he is treating in regards to a diagnosis. I am just feeling like I need to just suck it up until after I have the muscle and nerve test to see what they reveal. But I do know that my comfort level is low - almost non-existent. So Tramadol does not work on whatever I have going on..

Hi Skeeter
What dose level are you taking for Tramadol? Also is it regular or slow release?
I have found that slow release works much much better. But you also need to find the right dose. I started with 150mg twice a day. I am happy to say that over about 2 or 3 months I was able to get it down to 100mg twice a day. It's still a work in progress.
I certainly couldn't use regular Tramadol. It would be like taking tic tacs.
I hope that you are having some good days in amongst the pain.

When I am in pain for a long time I get super bitchy!
Having no break from the pain is terrible and exhausting.
Maybe you are upset because Tramadol doesn't work.
I know this may not be helpful, but this morning I ve been watching funny animal videos to help me through the funk and to stay away from the pills.
The pain is winning unfortunately, but positive imagery it got me through an hour.
(((( hugs)))

Just an update on "Pain causing me to feel angry". I called my primary care physician yesterday (Mar. 24th) and he upped my dosage to 2 tablets now every 6 hours. This morning after taking the 2 Tramadol I found that within 30 minutes I was "pain free". I can't even being to tell you how great I feel right now. I was feeling so motivated from finally not being in pain that I went to the grocery store this morning. Normally my husband does all the grocery store runs.

So today is going great for me right now. I do have some restlessness going on in my leg and a numb/tingling feeling in my left foot but I can tolerate all of that. I'm just so ecstatic about not being in pain. it's been a long, hard road dealing with the pain and bless my husbands heart as he has been to tolerant of me being cranky, irritable and angry but I think those days are over as they seem to have made the right call by increasing me to 2 tables instead of just the one table.

Thank you everyone for your supportive responses. It's truly a blessing being a part of a group of people who are all going through the same thing and knowing that you can get into this group and just rant sometimes.