Hello to all I haven't been on for a while, but its time again , I need to talk to people who understand what we all go through. The ones out there that know me and my history, I finally got out of my abusive and 34 year old bad marriage. But its not easy out here either. Living on disability money , in pain from diabetic neuropathy , trying to find a place to live has been a nightmare I have moved 3 times in 5 months and might have to move again. People really suck I have totally lost faith in humanity and people in general. Its really hard to deal with my problems without a comfortable safe place to live. I am in a 1 bedroom apt in a shitty part of town, dealing with cockroaches and a unstable landlord , my last friend has been staying with me because he is out of work and basically has no place to go. I have to get off the narcotics but the pain is so bad, I just started lyrica again and hope it helps this time. Anyway when I talk to my friend he has the same attitude as everyone else who doesn't have our problems. I even pulled some strings and got him a job, I just know as soon as he is on his feet I won't see him again, I can spot the users a mile away. I am a nice guy and everyone takes advantage of me. I want off the pain meds so bad they are killing me but the pain in my legs are so bad, he says he has pain and all I have to do is go to detox and deal with it. Its been over 2 years and I have been trying everything to deal with it. I'm tired that's all I can type for now. Hello to all my friends out there hope all is well