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Ever since I got sick, I do not sleep well. It goes in cycles depending on where I am in my flaring. I've had a lot of years to get used to it, I don't like it but it's better than fighting it the whole way like my husband. Since I am up and my husband doesn't put things away I tend to leave some lights and night lights on in the house. With the economy my husband has wanted to be more frugal and wanted those lights out. I never really agreed, but he's the one who turns them off every night so I figured if he was that adament about it I'd let it go.
Well last night it happened just like I knew it would. I was restless had gotten up for something to drink and did not see my dog in the middle of the floor and stepped right on her. She yelped like she was being skinned a live. She is a rescue and was kicked so I am thinking she thught I kicked her more than she was hurt. And that breaks my heart. I had a melt down. I put her in my lap(sort of, she's 60lbs) and just sobbed. She was shaking and I felt horrible. I don't ever want her to think I hit, kicked, anything her except love and take care of. I was exhausted and I know I over reacted, but I still feel bad.
So being a typical male, he blamed on me being up and fell right back to sleep while I curled up with her on the bed. She is OK today so I hope it is forgotten.
After being up all night I now had a doctors appointment with my rheumatologist. They have just moved to a new swanky building and were an hour and a half behind. In the 9 years I have gone there I have never felt rushed or that my symptoms were ignored. Well today I did. First off, he tells me he can't fill my pain creme because it has ketamine in it(along with ibuprofen, ketoprofen, amiltriptyline and carbazapine). He says he's not allowed anymore. I looked it up and it is a schedule III so unless I missed it, he should be able to prescribe it. I do not like being lied to, I'd rather he say that with the DEA up everyone's arse's watching what they prescribe, he's not comfortable prescribing it anymore.
Sorry for the long rant, just over this whole med thing. Go focus on something else especially now that it's been proven that it's not as bad as they have been saying it is.
Well last night it happened just like I knew it would. I was restless had gotten up for something to drink and did not see my dog in the middle of the floor and stepped right on her. She yelped like she was being skinned a live. She is a rescue and was kicked so I am thinking she thught I kicked her more than she was hurt. And that breaks my heart. I had a melt down. I put her in my lap(sort of, she's 60lbs) and just sobbed. She was shaking and I felt horrible. I don't ever want her to think I hit, kicked, anything her except love and take care of. I was exhausted and I know I over reacted, but I still feel bad.
So being a typical male, he blamed on me being up and fell right back to sleep while I curled up with her on the bed. She is OK today so I hope it is forgotten.
After being up all night I now had a doctors appointment with my rheumatologist. They have just moved to a new swanky building and were an hour and a half behind. In the 9 years I have gone there I have never felt rushed or that my symptoms were ignored. Well today I did. First off, he tells me he can't fill my pain creme because it has ketamine in it(along with ibuprofen, ketoprofen, amiltriptyline and carbazapine). He says he's not allowed anymore. I looked it up and it is a schedule III so unless I missed it, he should be able to prescribe it. I do not like being lied to, I'd rather he say that with the DEA up everyone's arse's watching what they prescribe, he's not comfortable prescribing it anymore.
Sorry for the long rant, just over this whole med thing. Go focus on something else especially now that it's been proven that it's not as bad as they have been saying it is.
Boxer... Hope you can get your script sorted with your Rheumy and glad your dog is OK... Best wishes....
The EKG was next and I was having palpitations so bad he wanted to rush me to a cardiologist for a stress test.
I think we live in such fear that just one more thing is all that it takes to tip the balance at any point. Add to that the constant sleepless nights and exhaustion just leaves us at a total loss that no one can understand unless they live it daily.
I bet your dog understand more than you realize. I have one who whimpers at the tiniest things at home. But at the vet he is a trouper. The other is terrified of the lights turning on and off but will take on the biggest dogs there are.
The fact that you worried about her feeling like she was back in that abusive situation just proves that you love her. Try to forgive yourself for her sake so she can have her balanced mommy back. That is what she really needs you to be for her.
Be patient with yourself too.
And FINALLY, plug those night lights back in. You coulda fell over the dog and broke your leg. Then what happens -= to the dog; to you???
Google the real costs of things and show hubby. I bet he has a couple "toys" around the house that cost a whole lot more than lighting.