I'm going to take a moment to complain. No matter what pain pills or muscle relaxers I take, they never subside the pain. I'm sitting in a comfy chair right now and my right leg, from my hip to my big toe, feels like its being branded with hot iron. I can't even SIT anymore without being in pain. There is no escape. I dream about pain at night and wake up sweating because my body hurts so much. I trip over almost everything and I can never keep my balance. I wish there was a way to make the pain go away... But I just have to wait and see. Over time it's only gotten worse, and more medical problems. I rarely cry, but I feel like doing so right now. I am so lucky to have my wife in my life to take care of me. There are times when I lay down on the sofa and I can't move my legs to get up. She is always there. She's the only thing in this world that gives me a reason to fight.

I've been away for so long and haven't been able to support anyone here, so I don't expect a response... But no one around me understands, not even my wife. She is there to help, but she doesn't understand how much I hide the pain from her, so she doesn't stress out.

I start my next semester in college next month, the day after a three day camping trip with my new family... I'm scared. Should I go? I can't really back out now...

I can't find a pain management doctor and my primary doctor is becoming a dick about everything.

I just want to be happy and health so I can start a family...