you know that I don't agree with suicide because of three family members dying that way...also want to warn you of possible serious serious injury from overdosing on pills...brain damage does not make me want to take OD....anyway I hope that you get some other support here...I say YES it will be worth it...life continues to make changes....

Yes, it is worth it! It's worth not sentencing your daughters to a life of hell. I've worked with many kids who have had a parent commit suicide; it destroys them and mutilates their lives. It's cruel.

I need to tell you this, it sounds to me that you are rehearsing the plan. Please stop. Call someone you trust; call the suicide prevention line. Suicide is a very permant solution; there is no coming back. It's a very cruel thing to do to loved ones.

I know pain is difficult to cope with. I want you to be safe and okay. I want your daughters to have the best chance they can have, and that means having their mom whom they love and trust to be with them through the important moments in their lives.

Your important, your valuable and you matter.

Please make a good decision and call someone you trust!

I'm with jt. You have no expiration date where your daughters are concerned. If you have loved and nurtured them throughout their lives, there will never be a time they won't need you. Please call someone.

I swear I'm not going to commit suicide. Like I said, my daughters mean to much to me. I'm just feeling low and depressed. But I promise. I will not kill myself. Thank you all for you kind words

Yes,it is worth it! I know when you're in pain you want nothing more than the pain to stop-but when you aren't in pain and doing the simpliest things...aren't you enjoying life then? We just have to find ways to get thru those h*ll times of pain and MAKE life woth living!

Im sorry you've been feeling so down loralp..sometimes the emotional pain can be just as exhausting as the physical can't it. I know what you mean about wanting to sleep the days away, i rarely get strong sleeping meds because, when they are here, its too tempting to take more then I should, not to die, just to sleep because more sleep means less pain and the never ending pain filled days go quicker.

I hope coming here and getting things out helps, especially when you realise your not alone with these thoughts. I think we are all a lot stronger than we give ourselves credit for, living with cp is a hard, stressful life and we're all doing the best we can.

Again, thank you for your love and support! I am doing better, had it out with my Boyfriend to make him REALLY understand where I am at. That helped. And coming to DS always helps, I don't know why I wait till I am at the end of my rope to come back. BBlades all of you and prayers for you all