Chronic Pain Support Group
Physicians and professionalsdefine pain as chronic if it lasts longer than three to six months and is persistent. It's distinct from acute pain that is a direct result of injury or trauma. This support group is dedicated to those suffering from chronic pain. Discuss treatments that have worked for you, find advice for your specific experience, and find support. You're not...
I find myself sitting here, 4 hours since i arose, waking even before the dawn to my old familiar friend pain.....
I have lost all of my friends, there were the ones that stopped talking to me the minute they found out i was sick, and there were the ones that held on, the ones that vowed to be by my side no matter what... its a joke that stopped being funny a long time ago. In the end they all went in the breeze, whether by my hand or fates they are gone.
I have now truly become a victim, alone within myself, and its not a pity party just cold irrefutable facts.
My condition has changed my life and in doing so it has, despite my best attempts to stop it, changed me. I try to be positive, upbeat, strong... But all i want to do is either let the pain take me, or make every other person in existence feel as i do.....Neither is a noble aspiration...
How do i find the way back? do i even want to? pain has robbed me of almost all but the barest parts of my life, but in doing so it has opened my eyes to the truth of life, life is pain. true there is also love and only love that burns bright can overcome if even briefly the pain that is life....
I dont know, just thinking deep thoughts in a shallow pool today, what a way to start off the day huh?...........Kris.......
I have lost all of my friends, there were the ones that stopped talking to me the minute they found out i was sick, and there were the ones that held on, the ones that vowed to be by my side no matter what... its a joke that stopped being funny a long time ago. In the end they all went in the breeze, whether by my hand or fates they are gone.
I have now truly become a victim, alone within myself, and its not a pity party just cold irrefutable facts.
My condition has changed my life and in doing so it has, despite my best attempts to stop it, changed me. I try to be positive, upbeat, strong... But all i want to do is either let the pain take me, or make every other person in existence feel as i do.....Neither is a noble aspiration...
How do i find the way back? do i even want to? pain has robbed me of almost all but the barest parts of my life, but in doing so it has opened my eyes to the truth of life, life is pain. true there is also love and only love that burns bright can overcome if even briefly the pain that is life....
I dont know, just thinking deep thoughts in a shallow pool today, what a way to start off the day huh?...........Kris.......
Hug...jc
Instead of smileys we need an angry face, depressed face, resigned face, pain face, crying face, need a hug face....and why bother with a happy face cause those are so darn rare!
I'm sorry Kris.....(((((BIG HUGS)))))
all my decisions are made by pain, its like an angry animal that sleeps behind my eyes trying to chew its way out. It makes this poor semblance of a life so hard.... It takes all my energy to keep this animal from getting out and hurting everyone i love. and thats ultimately what it wants, to get out to feed, to make everyone and everything around me feel like i do.....
Of course, I would never want the ones I love to hurt....they are the reasons for continuing in a fight that cannot really be won.....
But....sometimes I watch them from behind my pain and resent the very fact that I have to keep doing this seemingly impossible life because of them....and resent them for it........Just another of the vicious cycles of this Chronic Pain thing.......
Then the pain eases a little.....the mist clears some .......and I find my true...real self that is not mired in misery.
So far....it passes.....that,s just enough to barely hold onto for now.
Sorry....there's no punch-line this a.m.
Hugs.....jc..
Wouldn't it be fun in a better mood to make some new 'hug' characters?
Hug....jc
Hugs.....jc..
or that wincing face - swinty eyes, wrinkled forehead, when you're trying to breathe.
i agree with jan better deep thoughts where you are.
i know it's hard to make freinds with an enemy, but i'm trying to stop hating mine as it is now a part of me. and forigiving those friends who've fallen by the wayside. it's a process. i'm not there by any means. i think we scare people.
It must be some consolation to talk about it....or you wouldn't be here baring your soul........
So, little as it is....please remember that you are not alone......
I'll be thinkin' of you when I'm not crying between the ( literal) bumps in the road.
Hold on, Kris......sometime's that's all that's left.......hold on.
Love you.....jc..
Now is your chance to take a good hard look at yourself and deal with the dark shadow side. It's only until we face it that we can move beyond it so that it does not affect our actions. Acting it out does not resolve any of the anger or hurt or fear. Feeling it deeply is what transforms it.
I'm sorry if I sound preachy. I'm just trying to share what I have learned over these 19 years of pain. It's not an easy road, but it's absolutely worth it if you are looking to improve your life and that of others.
You have my best wishes. I always appreciate your posts, particularly because they are deep. Start looking into your emotions and find help and you'll also find all sorts of new friends who are on the same path.
Hugs,
Ama
Anyway, I just wanted you to know that you are not alone, hoping the pain gets a little better for you...
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