I now apparently do have an enlarged right sided heart from who knows. They say it is common for people who have had blood clots in the lungs. But it can also be from the sleep apnea, or even from the high blood pressure. The heart doc said it's nothing to worry about and brushed it off because I am young and my heart is still pumping good. Why do doc's just dismiss everything and say you're young. Three other doc's brushed off the abnormal EKG's that were saying I had left ventrivular hypertrophy. It turns out I have right ventricular hypretrophy. I hate even bringing up issues with docs these days. how do you dismiss a whole host of symptoms and diseases, but yet you will prescribe medicine for them? I feel like an old broken down car on it's last miles. I have had three of the worst weeks painwise and physical wise in six years. I have been in so much pain, global pain, muscle spasms, chroic mid grade headaches, chronic muscle soreness, weakness, and flu-like symptoms. Left sided chest pains. I have had to put in my 2 week notice for my part time job. My legs, and even good leg almost spasmed up so hard the other night I didn't think I was going to make it through the last hour of my shift. My legs are actually getting weaker from working than they were before I startred. Working and walking every day should be like a form of physical therapy and leave me stronger. It's getting bad again where even the weekend and an extra day off of resting is not even allowing my body fron recouperating from work. I took a day off yesterday and felt good today at work, now at the end of today's shift, I'm back in the same painful condition I was before I took the day off and I am taking it easy at work not even doing the heavy jobs. I have two more nights to work and then I turn in the keys to the building and my uniform. I guess it's back on the couch to regroup again. I feel like I'm drowning and as soon as I can get a few weeks off, I will be able to breathe again. What is there left if I can't even hang onto a part time job. At least I am trying. I won't stay on couch forever though this time. I will keep on trying different jobs until something works, or until I am completely incapacitated. I hope the rest of you all are fairing better than me. Hugs.
having bipolar isnt easy and i cant stand when people think that its just about mood wings . its WAYYYYYYYY more then that .. there are emtionals behind it . i cant stand when people who dont have bipolar think they are better then people that do. why cant people just be a litte more understanding or at least be willing to understand.
Does anyone have anything interesting going on for the weekend?