I had my back surgery on the 18th and I am sorry to say that I have not felt like even getting on the computer.The surgery went Ok.The dr said he had to do alot of repairs,more that he even knew that he had to.The scarriest thing was that he found a 4 cm peice of ragged bone floating around in there.He said that it was a mericle that it had not done alot of damage and that I was even going to be able to walk again.He told my family that when he got to it it was very close to the nerves and that it could have severed them and I would have been paralized for the rest of my life.We dont know how long it had been broken off like that.I havent had any recent injuries,just the one when I fell and injured it about 12 or 13 years ago.On Sunday before the surgery I know that I was in horrible pain all day and my hubby thinks it may have broken off when I picked up my baby that morning.In the picture the dr gave us of it it looked very fresh,not like you would think it would look if it had been broken off for awhile.

My family have all been very helpfull and some so much that they have just about drove me nuts for the past almost 2 weeks.Even my ED has been very loving and caring through it all.She calls me about every hour to make sure I am OK.I have to say I very proud of her right now,she has been clean and sober for a long time now and we have been trying to build some kind of relationship long distance,she is in ILL and I am in TN.She wants to come for a visit for Mother's Day,I am still making up my mind about that.If it weren't for the boys I would be glad to say "yes" but I have to decide if it would be in their best interest as she is their bio-mother and they dont even know her.And the fact that I just dont know if I can trust her after all the stunts she has pulled in the past.

The only one of my family who hasnt been here for me is my youngest son.He didnt come to see me while I was in the hospital and never even call until I had been home several days and then he only called to argue over his brother calling him and jumping him for the way he was doing me.He is still mad at me over me telling him and his gf what I thought of them & walking out of my gs's,his son,birthday party because they all were getting drunk at a 2 year old's party.I have yet to be allowed to see my grandson and it breaks my heart.

Thanks everyone for your prayers they were felt and appriciated.Please continue to keep me in them,I still have a ways to go before I completely recover.I love you all very much and truely appriciate all of your support.

Janey

ps.I will be coping and pasteing this post to several sights so if some of it sounds out of place for your page please forgive me.It is very painfull to sit for long and this is the easist way for me to update everyone.