Nothing ever changes or gets better.

Lilly -

Are you being seen or being treated for depression.

I certainly know the feeling. It's awful having to give up things you like and still struggle to get through what's left. It's taken me a lot of work to adjust to the limitations this disease puts on me. I've been on an antidepressant for a few years now, which has helped. Even so, I still have bad days - sometimes weeks or even months. Do you have someone you can get support from? Even if you do, feel free to talk about it here. I generally check here once a day, but if you message me, I can make myself available for a chat if you want.

Lilly, I would like to recommend some super good vitamins. I think we all have stress in life and there is no amount of food that could sustain us while going through it. So many nutrients get depleted by stress and we also lose them through urination. The vitamins by Dr. James L Wilson Adrenal Fatigue Supplements instantly helped me. They instantly gave me the energy I needed to handle stress to the point that life no longer felt stressful and they also took away the weekly migraines. I quit taking them to see if it was my imagination then a migraine headache quickly formed. They're pricey but they work instantly. No food is needed to take them either. I took them 3 times a day and on less stressful days I took them 2 times a day.

I no longer feel exhausted, or lethargic. I have energy to do the things I need to do. They helped me feel normal again. I dropped the SSRI I was given.

I also got my other hormones (estrogen, progesterone, testosterone) checked and discovered those were severely low so you might want to have yours checked. I had to INSIST for the Endo to check mine, he didn't want to at first. He told me, I think those will come back normal and when they didn't I was sent to get the results from the other physician in the office, I guess he was too embarrassed to give me the results! I hope this information is helpful.

I understand how you feel. It's so hard having to live in a body, continually deprived of the energy you need to have any sort of quality of life. Trying to accept our condition and rise above it and be positive is easier said than done. Still, we have very little choice but to accept it, count our blessings, no matter how small and learn to love ourselves., because we are not our bodies, we are eternal spirit souls living out our lives in these bodies.
Today I'm in bed again, have cried my heart out because I'm too weak to walk. Now I'm surrendering to my condition once again rather than fighting it, and doing my best to find some self love.
So please be kind to yourself and forgiving to yourself and know that others acknowledge your suffering and feel for you and genuinely care..Try not to lose hope despite your continual suffering. Let us both practice positive affirmations to gain resilience. Love and healing to you.

I've been on and in medications/therapy for decades. It's done lil to nothing to improve my situation. I've done all self help I can.

Tonight's not a good night. I feel bad all over, inside out.

Sorry to hear that you're having a bad night. All I can do is remind you that you've got through tough times before and pray for you. Hang in there.

I appreciate all the replies to this subject. (Especially cmiat, and ausiedi.) You guys have encouraged me. It's good to know I'm not the only one who feels hopeless at times. Sometimes we need someone to talk to. Lily23 do you have someone you can call or ask over for coffee? Maybe just have a friend over to watch a movie with you in bed or something? Sometimes I just need to see another face, or especially, hear another voice.

Lillie23, I get you on that. Wish I had some suggestions for you. But I get it.
I'm able to function a bit. But not enough. And I don't have family to help. I'm 63, and fortunately I have some money coming in and a place to live. My sadness is that I watch my living space deteriorating around me because I'm not able to keep up with cleaning or home repair. And I can't drive the 8 hours to visit my son and his wife. And I can't drive the 14 hours it takes to visit my brother. And I accidentally dropped my poor dog today because I lost my balance. Fortunately she didn't get hurt at all. But it made me sad inside.
I spend my time reading and playing ToonBlast, ToyBlast, Grand Harvest Solitaire, and Word Crossy. I listen to the news. I don't have a TV, but that's OK. I've got a computer. I'm sad and sometimes frustrated. But I can be thankful because for awhile there I thought I was going to be homeless.
I have a strong feeling that you are not able to do as much as I am able to do. I'm sorry. If it helps, just know that there are many who can relate to how sad and frustrating this disease is.
Oh, for some GOOD NEWS. A scientist whose son has CFS is researching cause and cure. In spring of 2019 his team found a biomarker for CFS that was consistent in the 20 sufferers of CFS - and didn't appear in the control group of 20. Research is continuing. Now that they've found a biomarker, they can start looking for cures. His son is extremely debilitated. So the father is very motivated.
Stay strong, Lilly23.