Christmas happiness on TV is not real. Yes lots of people enjoy Christmas but others are unhappy...it can heighten your unhappiness because of the pressure to have a good time and the perception that everyone else is happy.

Hospitals don't understand CFS. You do not just have stress...you are ill. I once got taken off in an ambulance because I couldn't breathe and they said there was nothing wrong.

I'm sorry you are so exhausted and sad. You say you have nothing left to give but it sounds like you need to be receiving rather than giving right now. I take it there is a lack of support?

I don't know what else to say except I have been there and there are ways through and things can and do get better, but right now I hear your despair and your loneliness and your upset. Sending you virtual support and hugs.

So sorry to hear about everything going on.

First, did you say that you started any new medication? Have you fainted before? That is something that I would look into further.
Have you ever been tested for POTS?
There are a lot of ways to manage this, like getting a heart rate monitor and many other things, but I would check for it, especially if you are fainting. If often goes hand in hand with CFS.
It sounds like you've been through a lot, but there is always help and things can always get better.
Try to take care of yourself today and do something you enjoy. You've been through a lot.

Take care of you right now. Rest. Zone out in front of the TV if that is your thing. Watch funny movies or old TV comedy show. I just watched some old Carol Burnett shows and laughed so hard. Listen to your favorite music. Find a warm comfortable place to lay or sit. Wrap yourself up in a warm comforter. Take a hot bath. Whatever works for you.
Things do get better with rest.

There is a saying which has got me through times like you are describing - "When you come to the end of your rope, make a knot and hang on." (Though I usually picture myself sitting on the knot, because hanging on sounds too exhausting.) Without the energy to pull yourself out of the pit right now, don't even try. Just stay and rest. Give yourself time to process all those negative emotions and remember they won't last forever.

Hang in there, fellow sick-person. January will come, that darn music will quit, and we can go back to what we were.

People who work in the field of mental health will tell you that "the holidays" are a time of acute stress for people who are dealing with great challenges in their lives.

I'm dealing with it too. You're not alone, and it's good that you reached out to the group for support. I used to go to the ER's a lot. Now I go lie down, do a meditation exercise, and I can usually normalize things enough to carry on. Lying down really helps when you feel faint, we all have some degree of orthostatic intolerance. It will creep up on you.

That feeling that you can't deal with anything anymore...that's your cue to take a break and calm yourself. I always take breaks when I'm working on something, and it really, really helps.

I used to pass out a lot and I realize now I was not resting enough. I'm sure that frustrates you to hear because I imagine you find it hard to find time to rest. It sounds like you are really in a crisis at this moment. Your body won't let you get away way pushing non-stop anymore. I know you have had such a rough time physically and emotionally recently. Hold tight, dear one. We are on your side.

Like everyone who has posted. I too hear what you're saying
I agree that when something stressful happens and a lot of
difficult feelings come up, it can be overwhelming. When that
happens to me, I don't try to think of something positive. I
kind of just see what's going on. Because it's more stressful to
pretend that I feel up when I really don't. I'm sorry to hear all
that you're going through. It is a rough time with all the messages
out there, thinking we 'should' be so happy and so this and so
that.

Hi,
You are here and we hear you.
Everyone else is being so helpful with the emotional part of this, I'm going to take a whack at the medical.
When you get very stressed, you use up a lot of adrenaline, it just shoots out in waves. The very sensitive can actually feel it. When you have a lot of adrenaline coursing through your veins, it uses up blood sugar really fast, and your blood pressure rises.... then when you are done that moment of anxiety/fear/stress you are left with low blood sugar and sometimes low blood pressure to boot. In the average person both of these level out within about 30 minutes or so..so by the time you get medical help things look all peachy. Then you are left feeling like it's all in your head. I wonder if you are able to eat correctly at this point? Frequent meals with protein, no alcohol, limited caffeine, no artificial sweeteners (some trigger issues with adrenaline/cortisol) and lots and lots of water or herbal tea with some honey or maple...
I think it may just be a fortunate thing in the long run that you collapsed at work and have proof. Should you decide to go for disability, that information will come in very handy for your difficulty getting through a stressful day.
Sorry to be the analytical one but hope there is some help here.
hugs

I understand how you feel. I am feeling the same way. Exhausted and lifeless. I was reading the response about how stress makes your blood sugar drop fast. I recently had this happened. My sugar bottomed out during a very stressful situation at work.

Yes, soon the holidays will be over. I love Christmas only for the religious part. The rest is ridiculous. The fakery fake crap.

I hope you will feel better soon!! Hugs x