Poodlegirl, just lifted you up in prayer, asking God to restore your peace. I too have felt uneasy this week. Mine started on Tuesday when I called my church to ask for a conference with out Senior or Junior Pastors. The secretary said that they were in a staff meeting but she would give them the message, I have had a personal conference only once in 15 years. Our church is not huge or even large. I have been fighting disappointment that I have not received a call back to schedule a conference. I have made many excuses for not receiving a call to schedule and thank God it is not an emergency. I don't want to call back as I left my number and name and ask for an appointment. I attend church and participate in services. I had a praise report of huge magnitude to share but now feel that the timing was not right for me to share. Please pray for me to get over this and not take it personally.

With great love,
Betty

Praying for both of you

Thank you feeling...I read your profile and see that God has answered your prayers. I'm so happy that you are here to encourage others. You are a mighty Woman of God, please continue to lift us up.

Sometimes all we have is tosit in prayer and read the bible. And that pleases God. We must also wait patiently on Him, something very hard for me to do. You are in my prayers.

Praying for you. I believe estrangement is a spiritual attack. The enemy wants to destroy us through it. Let's cling to the Lord all the more. He will not fail us although others do.

Praying for each of us to be not just survivors but thrives by the grace of God. His grace is sufficient for us.

Well I don't know what's going on in the spiritual world right now, but I read recently that during the month of October, as it approaches halloween, the underworld is extremely busy. It said the level of witchcraft is very high. Again, what do I know? But I do know this - we can all cover ourselves, our families, and each other here with the blood of Jesus. That WILL take care of it. No weapon.......

I feel for you with the spiritual attack... The devil is real and never has a lunch break. He will work on our weak spots. He plays dirty and loves us to fear ..he always loves division in families. Be strong and find your peace again. God Bless you in your hour of need. Yes Halloween is the worst time.. Why people celebrate it ..is beyond my understanding. My love to all hurting. .

Poodle ... Praying for ya! Someone suggested to me going on Biblegateway.com and typing in something like Psalms and there is an audio setting and you can set it to play continuously.
I find that the devil hates it when we turn to Jesus all the more during his attacks ... Remember Jesus has conquered the devil ...
Also praise music helps alot too .... our weapon is prayer and we're all praying for ya.... HUGS

Lifting you up in prayer Poodle. Sit at Jesus feet, and let Him comfort you.

Praying for you, in Jesus name.

Thank you, everyone. I slept well last night for the first time in several nights. I DID wake up once, but instead of that suffocating feeling of dread and doom, I simply talked out loud to the Lord, and asked him to protect me, and then I thanked him for being with me. I turned over and went straight back to sleep. I can feel everyone's prayers and I know that is what is my only weapon. That and my own prayers, of course. And my faith. Several of you had mentioned Halloween and the closer we get to it the underworld being very busy. I had never thought of that, or any correlation to it. Maybe there is something to it. Anyway, thank you. I do feel better.

I have not been on here in a long time. Finally began to feel like my problem was just empty nest but not estrangement but I came here to read tonightt. My son has been really bad about contacting us and last night did not respond to a text where I told him I loved him. It just made me feel totally worthless as his mother and as a person. reading this about Halloween and October hit me. I have been having negative feelings about my son in the month of October. WOW. Yes, I do believe the Devil is alive and he is working on me big time. On days like this I would just like to squeeze the life out of my son for ignoring me. Let's all pray to get ourselves through this month. This world is full of evil -- drugs, alcoholism, what is show on television, EVERYTHING. I sometimes wish that the Lord would come back quickly.

Hi wyemum, I understand your frustration about your son. I feel like mine has died but there has been no funeral. I try very hard to deal with never seeing him....then with all the wickedness going on in the world I am torn between being protective towards him and pulling my hair out coping with the fact he is just getting on with his life and as he puts it can't have me in his life,,,,ever again. How are we supposed to handle that ...when we still love them so much. Like you I feel I wish Jesus would return ... We are told not to worry but we can hardly be carefree walking around with this in our hearts..... As much as we are all trying to get on with our lives best way we are able to. It's more than upsetting. All the stages of life we shared with our children.... Then nothing to me is more than I can cope with. There is so many suffering because of division in their families.

Sorry I spelt your name wrong whymum.

So sorry poodle....you did the right thing by praying and staying close to God. But at least you have AC and family you are close to......a lot of us here have no relationship with our EC. You are very blessed.

The last few weeks I have been wishing the Lord would return also. I am so tired of feeling tormented inside with all the many terrible hurtful things both our ES and ED have done to us and still trying to do. I just feel traumatized and suffer so much from just the shock of it all.

It is so hard to go through a death of a close person but to experience a death of a relationship and purposeful separation is just so beyond the human ability to understand and cope with. I just don't know if I will ever get over this terrible shock. Some days I feel I am just 'existing' or going through motions .... I have no feelings at all.

As far as being October and satan's favorite day. I agree that anyone that is handing out candy and posing "innocently" to celebrate this wicked holiday while calling themselves a Christian well if this is the case they will be a attacked for sure. There is hot or cold for the Lord.....remember the warm gets spit out. I have seen so much of this in past churches.... it made me sick.

You are so right what you have said Ruth.