Today I lost my son. Not in a death as most would assume, but in a death of the heart. I post this not for anyone to mourn for me. I am done mourning myself. I have mourned the situation for several years now and it is time for me to move on. My son decided to eliminate me from his life several years ago. I hung on to the hope that someday he would come back to have a mother/son relationship but that has never happened. Years of me struggling with on and off depression has now ended. I am leaving my son at the feet of Jesus. By doing so I am releasing all the burden I have been carrying around with me for the last several years.

This is the start of a new year and a new life for me and I am moving forward. I now only have one child. I will move on with a new life and enjoy what my future holds for my daughter and I.

Please pray I can continue with this venture and move on with my life. I so want to make the step forward. These children that estrange their parents are putting awful burdens on them both emotionally and physically. I feel my health has suffered from dealing with this. I need to start a new chapter in my life it that is possible.