Caretaker for 99 year old mom with signs of dementia. She took my set of house keys last night, hid them, and when asked where they were told me she would let me in the home. When I went in her room to look, she became combative. I had to walk away while trying to keep her arms from hitting me. She has macular degenerative eye disease ( going blind), 17% of her hearing, and is medically fragile ( fall risk). I am the only sibling taking care of her, now in her home. I have cared for her since she was 95. I handle her finances and have medical power of attorney thru doctors and hospital. She has never done a formal power of attorney. I do not want her in a nursing home, but am feeling stressed in her home. I sold my home. What to do with her hiding keys, combativeness, accusations, and no help from other siblings ( older than I, and not healthy)?
Ok it is now 2:38 and I’m counting down the minutes. For what I keep asking myself, because it doesn’t matter where I am it hurts and I’m sick at my stomach. I think I’m waiting for the passage of time, but what if I relax in the pain, feel it, look around and feel life all around. I know this will be hard but I know it could be so worse and I am so blessed. I feel ashamed of my sadness...
Sometimes, when I really feel so hopeless, I take a Tylenol painkiller when I don’t need it...however, it feels like it’s the only way to rid me of the pain. I’m scared that I’ll get addicted to Tylenol pills in the near future. What do I do?